A'kum...
Hmmm.. nak tulis pasal ape ha? Hahah... actuallynye ade topik nak tulis, tapi tgh boiling sket nie, so nak kene berpade-pade what I write takut blow up sebab bende nie memang sangat-sangat macam sial. Busuk kambing sume ade. Dengar from a friend mende yang sangat-sangat tak suke, tak boleh nak elaborate kat sini sebab mende nie die sorang ke yang buat, tak penah lagik aku kene mende camnie from orang lain. Hish.. all I can say is, gie mampos! Dah, tutup cite.
On to ranting pasal mende lain. Hmm.. certain orang kan (me included at times), buat bende tak pikir pasal orang lain. Tak pikir how it would affect orang lain, or relationship die ngan orang lain. Aku admit, sume orang sure ade time-time bangang camtuh, me included. Tipu lah kalau ade orang mengaku die tuh considerate kat orang sepanjang mase, anytime, anywhere. Kalau ade orang cakap camtuh, sure aku dah gelakkan die and cop die as budak paling penipu dalam dunie nie. But seriously, everyone ade prinsip yang die pegang very steadfast, and because of that principle, dalam area tuh takde kemungkinan lah die nak sakitkan hati orang lain sebab nanti die langgar prinsip die, unless kalau Allah dah mmg takdirkan die langgar, tuh tak boleh nak cakap pape lah. However, jangan lah pulak nak dijadikan alasan sebab Allah dah takdirkan, mende jadik. Ewah ewah, banyak lemak.
Anyway, on with the "story". Kalau korang ade feel strongly about something, and then tengok-tengok orang lain buat bende yang kirenye violate your principle, sure kite tak suke kan? No matter how hard we try to understand, a part of us would feel at least a bit resentful, kalau tak banyak pun, sikit jadilah . I should know, aku slalu je rase camtuh, but most of the time, kite akan cakap "takpelah, die pk camtuh, aku pk lain, biar je lah..."
Well, that's all okay and fine and dandy up until the time it directly affects you. Mase tuh all you can do is see red. Tak mengamuk, tapi rase hurt. Maybe marah. Doesn't really make a difference pon sebab kalau hurt lame sangat nanti die tukar jadi marah jugak. Pastu yang lagi best, time ko tanak masuk campur dah hal orang tuh, tanak tau pon die idop ke mati ke gile ke dah tukar jadik babi ke, tetibe orang tuh nak force diri die dalam ko nye life. Ewah ewah... chett, macam tak paham protocol lak die nie (assume lah die dah tau die buat mende yang kite consider as "breaking the taboo" ). Ngamuk tak? Elok-elok ko saket ati je, terus naik angin. Rase macam nak bom rumah orang tuh biar jadik macam Hiroshima zaman Jepun kene bom dulu.
Pandai buat pandai lah tanggung, jangan nak mintak simpati from the person you wronged. Lesson tuh aku dah belajar lame dah (well, relatively lame lah. Err.. well mebbe tak lame sangat). I always expect the worst lepas buat salah kat orang, senyap-senyap beat myself up for being so stupid, but that's how you learn. It's unfair kalau nak expect just because kite rase mende yang kite dah buat tuh logically forgivable, or kite rase kite dah cukup insaf dah tanak buat lagi if only that person forgives us, or mebbe kite rase mende tuh kecik je pon apsal nak marah, bottom line is... that person got hurt. Period. Kite dah sakitkan hati orang, and it's within that person punye right nak marah kite ke, nak benci kite, or nak forgive kite. You cannot force the other person to forgive kalau die tanak or die tak ready. Tak boleh nak expect "Aku dah explain dah, so die patut tak marah dah" sebab that's logical thinking, and humans tend to be more emotional than logical. Mmg lah kite kate, "Tak patut marah lame-lame, tak elok, tak baik", well baik sangat ke orang yang sakitkan hati kite tuh, kalau die baik, apsal die buat camtuh in the first place? Apsal die tak think it through before buat ape yang die buat? Lepas tuh, lepas dah buat tuh, baru nak repent, baru nak explain. Humans make mistakes, I admit that. Tapi as the person who was wronged, mistakes tuh can be costly... very costly indeed. Sebab kite takkan tau how much that mistake affect that other person, how much that person suffer just because kite tak boleh nak luang sikit mase to think it through sebelum buat ape-ape actions. Seriously, kalau the person who wronged me to boleh rase the hell that I'm feeling now, sampai bile-bile pon die boleh ingat.
Berani buat berani tanggung. Jangan nak mengade nak miserable mintak simpati (I myself would do well to remember that).

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