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Sorry lah tagboard tuh lambat nak load, still looking for a new perfect one. Anyway, SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!! Today is the first day of raya in Michigan. Nak amek kesempatan kat sini nak cakap Maaf Zahir Batin from hujung rambut sampai lah hujung kaki, sape tak hantar duit raya lagi tuh bak mai sini, hehehe. Anyway, hope sume orang ade a good raye, and sape rajin check out my raya message kat Utusan by clicking
here . Heheh... pelik, why is it yang die siap letak alamat lagi, even though I didn't give it.... until I remembered yang my hotmail account mmg ade automatic signature kat bawah. Ah shit. Men-ca-pub.
Hari nie sgt2 sejuk, tapi tak pedulik, pakai jugak baju kurung pegi classes. Tahan je lah. Sedih sikit sebab rindu rumah and I missed some of my friends, two especially. Not a bad kind of sedih, a good one. I wasn't really feeling sorry for myself, more like teringat the good times that we had and knowing that I'll miss them, and it doesn't have to be a bad thing.
Anyway, I still haven't decided nak pegi Purdue ke tak for Thanksgiving/Eid. Maybe I will :) .

Wassalam

Assalamu'alaikum....
New (temporary) tagboard.... hehehe..... errmm... nak kene pomen lame punye, so to those yang tgh naik angin sebab "penat-penat aku post, siap letak link/email, tibe-tibe dah ilang" , sabor lerrrrrr.... nanti datang lah balik tagboard tuh (I hope). Hehehe... okay, later!
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Assalamu'alaikum....
Hehehe.. ade layout baru.... errmmm.... Tagboard ditutup seketika since I can't figure out yet camane nak letak without the whole thing getting out of proportions, so sekejap ye... in the meantime, tunggu lagi for perkembangan terbaru...
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Assalamu'alaikum.....

Sile lah datang site memorial untuk arwah Nanim, by clicking here .

Right now I'm currently at the Fishbowl (a computing site), tgh tunggu Dennis datang so boleh start bincang EECS 281 punye project plan. Before that, I went to my math professor's office hour sebab homework yang baru die kasi tuh haram jadah tak reti nak buat, heheh. Kate dah miss kelas seminggu, that racks up to 3 hours. Banyak tuh, material dah lah susah-susah. But I notice that he's being extra nice to me and siap boleh kasik jawapan soalan, alhamdulillah, takdelah pening sangat kepale nie.

I've never been the most obedient child. Slalu je degil takmoh dengar cakap bapak (cakap mak dengar lagik, entah, double standard kejap). Bapak suruh jadi doktor, tak nak sebab tak nak duduk matriks lame2, nak gie overseas. The only thing that I did listen to him was that to involve myself in the computing area. Know what, I wish I had listened to everything my daddy said, sebab ikut cakap parents nie banyak berkat nye. Sebagai contoh, my courses, susah camane pun, kambing cmane pun results, bile sampai at the end of the term, belum lagi lah nak dapat C or worse. Alhamdulillah sgt2. And sekarang nie, bile situation yang buat kepale tak menentu nie jadi, things are still within my control lah jugak, and tetibe banyak lah pulak "kelapangan" yang wujud (macam prof kasi jawapan tuh). Made me wonder, ntah2 kalau ikut cakap bapak jadi doktoir hari tuh, I might have breezed through everything nice and well, hehehe. Then again, kalau jadik doktor, takdelah kesempatan nak kenal arwah Teh ngan arwah Nanim. I wouldn't trade their friendship for anything in the world.

Due tige hari nie, both of my inboxes kene flood dengan takziah emails. Terime kasih Farah ucapkan. Some messages siap share their own experiences jugak, ade people yang went through worse experiences than I did, I wonder where they got the stregth nak keep moving on. But now, I have a problem. I can't reply to all (at least not now) sebab I'm struggling nak catch up with stuff, but I feel bad about deleting emails sebab people took time from their day nak write those, so I need to at least reply cakap thanks and then delete. But if I don't delete, my inbox takleh nak masuk new emails (average sekarang nie is about 10 or more emails per hour). Haru lah pulak. So to people reading this and have sent me condolences emails, thank you so much, I'll try to get on replying everything ASAP.

Know what, I've been getting emails from perfect strangers yang felt for my pain and loss as well as for those of the families and UMIMSA students..... so many emails, and a few phone calls. A lot of people try nak contact me, all except one. One person who surprised me beyond reason sebab tak dengar kabar berite langsung. Takkan lah nak tunggu sampai I sendiri yang accident baru u nak contact :( .I do not ask for your pity, or even your compassion, tapi entahlah, when u didn't contact me at all, I was a little hurt. Sebab maybe if the situation is reversed, and you were in my place, I would've tried to contact you and made sure you were okay. Then again, that's just me (and the rest of humankind).

There, I got that out of my system. Pikir-pikir balik, biarlah. Besides, I'm not alone, I always have Allah guiding me through life, giving me the greatest love of all. I have my loving family, my selfless and compassionate friends, and I have the whole of Malaysia reading what I wrote about both arwah, and I hope I've managed to touch other people they way both of them did when they were alive, more so after they died (I mean this in a good way tau, jgn interpret yang bukan-bukan yerr..). I have professors and colleagues who understand, and most of all, I have memories of arwah Teh and Nanim and the lessons I've learned from them to bring with me until they day that I myself pass away. What more can a person ask for?

During these last days of Ramadan, Farah nak ucapkan Selamat Menyambut Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir Batin to semua orang, tak kisah lah kenal or tak kenal, kalau Farah ade ter cakap, terbuat salah silap, maaf kan ye. To err is human, to forgive divine. Haa.. especially mende yang terambik, termakan, terminum, halalkan lah. Last days of ramadan nie banyak berkat die, tak advantage of it :) (advice for me, too, tak sangke Ramadan dah nak habis). May all of us have a blessed life, filled with hope, joy and laughter.

Wassalam ........

Assalamu'alaikum...
Balik bilik kejap nak solat. Baru lepas check email, tak sampai 1 hr lepas the last time check, dah ade 26 yang baru. Erk. At this rate, habeslah my inbox. Errmm.... I honestly appreciate the thought, tapi unfortunately tak larat nak balas all the emails that I got, sorry yer. But thank you so much for your thoughts and concern, Allah je yang dapat balas.
Wassalam....

Assalamu'alaikum...
Sekarang nie I have about 10 minutes before my French class starts. Saje je amek peluang carik comp and jot down some thoughts. First of all, thank you to those yang hantar emails to me ucapkan takziah for me and the Umich students, insyaAllah Farah try nak convey kan dekat sume orang. Mule-mule tuh surprised jugak, and then baru tau yang my story circulated ikut email rupenye. I think I've managed to make half of Malaysia cry, alamak, sori yer. But I'm touched that so many people took the time nak bace the extremely long blog entry, and then email me to show support. Alhamdulillah, it just shows that no matter where you are, Malaysians and Muslims always stand together. Memang shows the true meaning of being brothers and sisters.
It's been a week lebih since the accident. Kadang-kadang tuh rase time flew by, other times rase macam "it's only been a week?". But what everyone kat sini (girls especially) would agree is that semue orang tgh frantic nak catch up missed lessons, missed homeworks and yang paling tak best, missed exams. I myself did a make-up exam semalam, baru tadi dapat result (result macam kambing by the way). Aiseh... time-time depressed pasal academics stuff tuh yang teringat arwah Nanim sebab die sgt-sgt pandai, slalu jugak lah kacau die tanye stuff (unfortunately kitorang lain majors, so courses pun takdelah overlap sangat). Baru-baru nie start study kat Eaton Lounge dengan the rest of the Malaysians. Time-time camnie lah rasenye nak really surround yourself with people, kalau tak rase suffocated sangat nak go through freaking out pasal studies sorang-sorang.
Oh ye tak ye, lupe, to my friends who tried to call me, so sorry, sekarang mmg tak lekat bilik dah, dah 3 malam tido bilik Deera. Sekarang nie idop macam orang nomad, so sesape nak contact, boleh lah carik contact info cik Nazatul (Nazutal? heheh) kite yang tidak akan di publicize kat sini. Time kaceh.
Wassalam...(dah kene gie kelas dah)

Assalamu'alaikum...
Sorilah kinda lame tak update, banyak sikit stuff nak kene buat. On Friday, I started going to one of my classes again. Cuak jugak sebab the prof dah kasi answer key kat hw yang I haven't submitted yet, but alhamdulillah, die understanding sgt and said I can pass it up whenever. Jumaat tuh, banyak mende "interesting" happened to me, tapi malas lah nak elaborate kat sini, stupid-stupid stuff jek (all I can say is, I suck at watching horror movies sebab tido separuh movie celik separuh ).

Anyway, on Saturday, Islamic Center ade buat donation drive for arwah Teh ngan Nanim. It was weird actuallynye, takut pun ade, nak cross jalan tempat accident tuh jadik, mase kitorang kene berenti kejap kat tgh2 jalan nak tgk kerete pass, nasib baik tak freak out kat situ, rase nak patah balik pun ade. Alhamdulillah lah, everything went fine, and I didn't have to cross again mase balik tuh sebab balik naik kete Kak Deng.

Sampai kat Islamic Center, masing-masing duduk waiting for bukak pose, then solat maghrib, iftar, after that, lebey kurang 6.30 camtuh, baru lah event start. Bashir ngan Kirah (on my behalf) kasi speech pasal arwah Teh ngan Nanim. Mase dengar speech, dah sebak dah, and bile Kirah said the words that I wrote, at the end tuh mengalir lah jugak air mate. I wondered if my written speech was appropriate or not sebab Farah takdelah elaborate on diorang punye background, or acheivements, tapi more to what they meant to me, how I saw them. I hope everyone else managed to relate to it jugak.
Balik tuh, Kak Deng bawak gie jalan2 jap, gie kedai Cina and Wal-Mart (I needed some stuff). Last-last tak beli pun (microwave, periuk nasik), tunggulah dah survey habes nanti. Balik from kedai, we had one last tahlil for both arwah, alhamdulillah almost all girls lah jugak yang ade, even the ones yang duduk kat central. Mase nie, rase appreciative sgt for my friends, and I'm proud of the way that all of us stood by each other, regardless of personal feelings or personal comfort.

Hari nie ade iftar again kat rumah Sumaiyah, and next week rasenye Engineering department nak buat a bunch of other memorials jugak ( hopefully larat nak fill all, tanak lah miss sebab memorial nie untuk us to mourn jugak), and I emailed Lisa gitau yang I liked the idea nak tanam pokok to remember them by. Sekarang nie tgh try nak find out whether appropriate ke tak idea tuh actuallynye dalam konteks Islam, but kalau takde masalah, then I hope the idea flies with the Engin department and adelah pokok baru kat Umich nie.

Okay, I have to go now. Assalamu'alaikum to all :) , and thank you so much for everything.

Wassalam.

PESANAN IBU ARWAH TEH NANNIE

Assalamu'alaikum....
Kemarin, Kirah and I kene call parents arwah Nanim and arwah Teh respectively sebab nak dapatkan pesanan pasal barang ( ape yang nak hantar balik, ape yang nak sedekah, ape yang kasi kawan ). Since Farah yang cakap dengan mak arwah Teh, makcik Naziah mintak pesan kat semua orang yang kenal Teh. Makcik cakap, makcik mintak maaf on behalf on arwah, kalau ade orang yang pernah terase or kecik ati dengan arwah, makcik mintak maafkan lah salah silap arwah. Farah tukang sampai kan pesanan nie, hopefully ikut blogger nie, hopefully ade lah orang yang bace and tolong sebarkan kat orang lain. Farah usahakan jugak nak hantar emails to universities in US yang Farah tau ramai kawan due2 arwah, tapi sape yang bace nie, tolong2 lah sebarkan jugak ye.

Satu lagi, ex-UMIMSA members ade set-up kan tabung/derma untuk both families. Kalau ade organization/individu yang terase nak derma to them, rasenye boleh lah contact mane2 UMIMSA members and insyaAllah kitorang try to get you to the proper channels. In my previous posting, ade my own emails, and dekat belah kanan of this site pun, I put a link to my emails and AOL. Any help would be greatly appreciated.

Tadi ade memorial for both of them dekat MSE building, dekat Podbielniak Lounge. Mostly ramai MSE students, sebab EECS dah buat memorial hari tuh. Me, Dayang and Alisa arrived lambat sket, derang dah start dah, but kitorang sempat the session yang nak expresskan personal thoughts. Mule-mule takut jugak nak cakap pape, tapi bile Dayang start dulu, it kind of give me the strength jugak nak express personal thoughts mase tuh. Admittedly dekat nak last-last of my speech , dah sebak gile dah, so kene stop sebab takut nangis. I think I accidentally made orang lain sebak jugak, sebab dengar snifflings mase tuh. Aiseh, sorilah people.

Sekarang nie dekat bilik, alhamdulillah takat nie okay lagik, semalam tido bilik jugak, Dayang dengan Diba temankan (masak sambal tumis kol 12.30 malam sebab nak buat sahur, power gile). Now nie nak gie solat asar and carik food bukak pose, so nanti Farah tulis lagi.

Wassalam.

Assalamu'alaikum to all....

As I am writing this, a lot of the Malaysians and the Muslim people of Ann Arbor are right now at the Muehlig Funeral Home (403 S. Fourth Avenue Ann Arbor, MI). Maybe I should backtrack a little before, but before moving on, I would like to thank those of you who had message, emailed and even called during this difficult time. Thank you for the emails from Lock, Soon Sim, Kun Yun, Ekin, Yanie and Ammar USC, I'm writing this here because I'm not sure whether I've replied to your mails or not, so sorry if you guys were worried or anything of the such. Thank you, too, to those who left messages in my Friendster mailbox, messages at my MSN messenger (I was almost never in my room, so I couldn't reply to them). A few people mentioned to me that since I changed my email address, some people couldn't contact me. Anyway, my new (not exactly new, but newer) email add is farahfaisal82@hotmail.com, and my Umich address is faisalf@umich.edu . Sorry for the confusion.

Here I will try as best as I can to give a recount of what happened that night and after, since some people are still asking me about it. So here goes:

On Sunday, 9th November 2003, arwah Teh and I decided to have iftar at the masjid, and arwah Nanim came with us, as always the case. We went there by bus, had our iftar and did our Maghrib prayers there. After iftar, they decided to go back home to study and do their homeworks. I didn't go along because Deera and I had a review session to go to at 7 pm. So after saying our goodbyes, they headed out of the mosque. Not 10 minutes after that, Alisa and Dayang came running in and told us that both arwah Teh and arwah Nanim were hit by a car. Deera and I gathered our things and ran out. I was shocked to see a red pick-up truck in the middle of the road, and by then a crowd had already gathered around them. None of the Malaysian girls went near enough to see exactly what was happening, and no one saw the accident happen. All that any of us really know about the accident was that there was a loud bang, similar to the sound made when a tire explodes. I think all of us were standing there for a good 10 minutes before the paramedic came to take them away to the hospital.

I and few other girls who were there went with brother Abdullah to the hospital, while a few other male students followed suit in Hakam's car. At the hospital, we were greeted by a social worker, who had us ushered into a waiting room and told us that both girls were "in a critical, critical, critical condition". By then I think all of us were hoping and praying with all our strength that they would still come out fine. Not long after the social worker have gone two doctors came into the room and informed us that unfortunately, both girls have died.

By the, the atmosphere in the room was very heavy with emotions. I myself was crying uncontrollably into Dayang's arms. Alisa and Deera were hugging each other, with the boys looked stricken. Everything was a big blur from that point on, but from what I can remember about what the doctor said was that they never got a heartbeat even at the scene of the accident. It was mainly the impact and trauma that were the cause of death of both of them. The doctors also mentioned what kind of physical injuries they sustained, but I wasn't totally listening, so I can give out accurate details about that.

After that, the social worker asked for someone who knew them really well to come in and identify the bodies. I volunteered, and Dayang came with me at my request (I think everyone was pretty apprehensive about letting me go by myself, too). I can say honestly say that it was the longest and most difficult walk in my life. They took us through a corridor, where both bodies were placed in separate rooms at the end of the hall. Before going in, the social worker told me that arwah Teh might not look exactly as how I remembered her, that there may be tubings and such still attached to her face and body. My biggest fear was that if the injuries were so great, I wouldn't be able to recognize her anymore. I prayed to Allah and held Dayang's hand as the social worker opened the door to her room.

Alhamdulillah, my fear was unfounded. There were tubings on her arms and scratches on her face and body. But other than that, I thought she looked exactly the same as the sleeping Teh I remembered. Except I reminded myself that she's not just sleeping, she has really gone and left me and the rest of us. Brother Abdullah, who was also with us, recited the Al-Fatihah, and told me (since I requested to touch the body) to hold arwah's Teh's forehead and recite the Al-Fatihah. After doing that, I kissed Teh's forehead (in case I wouldn't be able to do it after this) and left the room. By then, I think both Dayang and I were pretty shaken.

The social worker then told us that I don't have to go in to the next room to look at arwah Nanim, since I've already identified arwah Teh's body, but all of us went in anyway to recite the Al-Fatihah and doe'. It was really, really hard to kiss my friends goodbye and know that I'll never be able to hear their laughter again, or see their faces or do the things you do with your best friends.

After I identified the bodies, the social worker informed us that there might be an autopsy since this is, technically, a criminal investigation. Both I and Ijat requested to have the autopsy waived because of religious reasons, which, according to the social worker, have never been waived before. By then, the corridor was filled with UMIMSA students, all with somber expressions on their faces upon hearing the news. I think everyone was deeply affected as we have a very close-knit community, and everyone knew the girls well.

We had to stay there at the hospital for about another two hours to finish the paperwork needed. All I want to say here is, people, please please PLEASE leave your case of emergency number with at least 2 or 3 people. The hospitals needed tons of information that night, not all which we had. But Alhamdulillah, everything that we could do, we managed to settle. Kak Deng commended the UMIMSA students for being so efficient and being able to handle the situation well, especially since all of us are so young and this is probably the first time a lot of us were faced with a situation like this. After the paperwork was done, all of us headed home, I'm sure all us were dealing with our own thoughts and feelings at that time.

That night, UMIMSA held two tahlil's, one for the girls and one for the guys. Later, I think no one really got much sleep. Almost all the girls here camped out at Ayun's room, me included. It was just a time that all of us needed each other's support. Eeryone was still trying to come to terms that it really happened, that we just lost two of our friends.

The next day was kind of a blur for me, too. The University held meetings with counselors not just for the people who had close connections with both arwahs, but for people who wanted to know more about what took place that night and how the tragedy occured. Everyone was showing their support, trying to help as much as they can. Early that day, three representatives from CMU arrived in Michigan (Usamah, Lynn and Lan) along with Kak Ros, the representative from MARA. I was deeply touched that they came all the way from where they originally were, especially since the students had to go back that very night, but they came anyway. Later that night, the University held an iftar for us at Pierpont Commons. Aside from the Malaysian students, the university people, and our officials (Kak Ros, Auntie Maharom and Uncle Azizan), there were also students from the Muslim Students Association. Again, the girls held a tahlil for the arwahs.

Today, I woke up to Ayun telling me that the funeral home (where the bodies were transferred to from the hospital) were letting people come and see the jenazahs from 11.00 am to 11.15 am. I got up, got ready, and along with Dayang, went to my room to settle some stuff. Two cars went to the funeral home, and it turn out they weren't finished with the preparation of the jenazahs yet. We only managed to see them around 12.50 pm. It was nerve wrecking, unnerving, ...... I’m still at lost for words to say to describe the experience. The jenazahs were placed in the basement, and we had to go down a long flight of stairs to get to them. The sweet smell was really overwhelming, I was holding on to Dayang's hand for dear life as we descended down the stairs. In a way, I think that already seeing them at the hospital made it easier for Dayang and me to actually do this. The sisters who bathed them then arranged the kafan cloths and revealed their faces, which were so peaceful and obviously filled with Nur that while I was still feeling a myriad of emotions, I immediately felt calm enough to realize that they are in a better place now, and that they are happy. The sisters conveyed that it was very easy to bathe them, that they were flexible, they had beautiful, delicate bodies and faces and it was definitely an indication that both arwahs were very good, God-fearing sisters. We recited the Al-Fatihah and 3 Quls, and I gave them each a kiss one last time and said my final goodbye.

The jenazahs were then brought to the Islamic Center for the jenazah prayer at 1.40 pm. I think the bulk, if not all, of the Muslim community turned out for it, and it was so gratifying to see it, arwah Teh and Nanim be very, very happy for that. Alhamdulillah, everything went well. After that, the funeral home gave the opportunity for members of the community to say their goodbyes. I and the few girls who went earlier didn't go because we wanted to give a chance to other people to say goodbye, but those who went said that both jenazahs really, really looked peaceful.

As I'm writing right now, we are setting up to have another tahlil for them and later, the girls are going to go and start cleaning up their room and take care of their personal affects.

I really have to stop now, but I'll be back later with more details, if any. Thank you for reading.

Wassalam.

Assalamu'alaikum....

I think by now, a lot of people dah dengar berite. Tanggal 9 November, 2003 .... I can say, without a doubt, the worst day of my life by far. Sampai sekarang, bende tuh seem unreal to me. What do you do, what do you say when you've just lost two of your closest friends in one single swoop?

To sesape yang tak tau lagi, semalam, lebih kurang jam 6.15 petang, Allahyarhamah Teh Nannie Roshema Roslan dan Allahyarhamah Norhananim Zainol baru saje pulang ke rahmatullah selepas dilanggar kereta di depan masjid (Innalillahiwainnailaihi rajiun) . Mase tuh diorang baru pulang from iftar, bile entah camane entah, a red pick-up truck langgar diorag mase tgh lintas jalan. Jalan tuh memang sedia maklum very dangerous, tapi sebelum-sebelum ni tak penah lagi dengar ade kes yang even remotely resembles this.

Full details ade dekat website Kirah, kalau nak tau lagi lanjut. If you can't go to it from my link, pegi kat website Deera (that link is definitely working), and click from there. Farah can honestly say sekarang nie yang alhamdulillah, diorang tak suffer much. According to the doctors, they died on impact, and efforts to resussitate them unfortunately proved fruitless. Dan alhamdulillah, from what I can see during my brief moments with them dekat hospital, that they died dalam keadaan tenang. Muke masing-masing tenang, alhamdulillah diorang pun baru lepas balik from tempat baik, buat bende baik dalam bulan baik.

Actuallynye Farah still numb, sume bende jadi cepat sangat. How do you cope? teringat lagi zaman-zaman when it was always the three of us. Orang lain, kalau nak pikir pasal kitorang pun, sure pikir in terms of Teh, Nanim ngan Farah. Even though dah masuk engineering tuh, takdelah berkepit selalu tige orang sangat, but both of them were always together sebab masing-masing ambik kelas almost same and keje kat Stockwell dining hall.

Malam tadi, the reporter from Michigan Daily tanye, what would you want to remember most about them. I said, the fact that they were loyal. Actually, I want to remember everything about them. Bile Farah tgh down, slalu pegi bilik sebelah and cerite dekat Teh, kalau tension pasal professors, selalu bising-bising dengan Nanim. They were a big part of my life kat Michigan nie. Everybody should have people they can always, always depend on. Teh and Nanim were mine. Now that they're gone, a part of me feel lost, too. Sepanjang malam takleh nak tido, terpikir pasal diorang. Almost every memory I have ade diorang, everything that I look inside my room mengingatkan Farah of the times we spent together, especially our Florida vacation. Malam tadi masuk bilik Teh, it took all of my strength to not keel over and start crying. I'm just grateful sekarang ni yang I have friends yang tengah grieving jugak sekarang nie, and we're holding each other up. Masing-masing jauh from family, so dekat Michigan, each other lah family.

Banyak questions main kat kepale otak ni. What do you do after a thing like this happen? Kite selalu tak sangke bende nie jadi kat kite. Alih-alih, bende macam nie jadi. Rasenye sume orang yang went through the ordeal from start to finish, sume traumatized. Susah nak erase a thing like this from your head, actuallynye tak patut erase pun. So how do you live with the memories.

I'm just glad I got to say goodbye. Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas mereka. Al-Fatihah.

Wassalam.....

Assalamu'alaikum....
Oooppsy, tukar lagu again (sori ler, previous song, Hey Ya from Outkast, letak tak sampai 12 jam dah kene bump off ). Hehe.. never mind, lepas nie letak lagi tuh balik, I just feel like having this one first. I used to be a Brit-pop freak, like seriously. I knew every top 40 British chart songs, I used to buy TOTP and Smash Hits all the time (the fact that I even know what the heck TOTP is should say something, it's Top Of The Pops), I adored Boyzone to bits, and I knew the direct translation to "gizza snog, luv" (ewww... I was such a dork). Errrmm... anyway, I'm not quite as infatuated with British music as I was, but I do enjoy this single from Sugababes. It just screams "Girl Power", reminisce of the time when Spice Girls rule and platforms were actually cool, for about 5 seconds. Here's the lyrics:

Hole In The Head

Seven hours since you went away
Eleven coffees, Rickki Lake on play
But late at night when I'm feeling blue
I'd sell my ass before I think of you

Seven hours since you closed the door
Started a diet, got a manicure
Erased your number from my telephone
And if you call me I won't be at home

He said:

[Bridge]
Why don't you cry
For the day
Say goodbye
Runaway
Why don't you cry
For the day
Say goodbye
I said ok, 'cos...

[Chorus]
Ooh, won't you miss me like a hole in the head
Because I do boy,
And it's cool boy
And ooh, bet you never thought I'd get out of bed
Because of you boy,
Such a fool boy

Eleven hours on a brand new day
I'm getting ready to go out and play
It's late at night, I'm caught in a groove
I'd kiss my ass before I'm feeling blue

Seven hours, what you calling for?
A bunch of flowers and I slam the door
You're in my face, sorry what's your name?
Takes more than begging to reverse my brain
'cos...

[Chorus]
Ooh, won't you miss me like a hole in the head
Because I do boy,
And it's cool boy
And ooh, bet you never thought I'd get out of bed
Because of you boy,
Such a fool boy

I'm through with it
Over it
Not having it
Crazy sh*t
Not feeling this
Can't deal, I quit
No more, No more
I'm through with it
Not having it
This crazy sh*t
Not feeling it
Can't deal with it
No more, I quit
No more, no more

Breaking off the ...
A brand new day has just begun
Just because you made me go "ooh"
Doesn't mean I'll put up with you
Don't you dare come back
Can't u see I wont take that?
I ain't crying over you
Better fill your head up like I told you

[Bridge]
Why don't you cry
For the day
Say goodbye
Runaway
Why don't you cry
For the day
Say goodbye
I said ok, 'cos...

[Chorus]
Ooh, won't you miss me like a hole in the head
Because I do boy,
And it's cool boy
And ooh, bet you never thought I'd get out of bed
Because of you boy,
Such a fool boy (such a fool)

[Chorus]
Ooh, won't you miss me like a hole in the head
Because I do boy (I do)
And it's cool boy (yeah it's cool)
And ooh, bet you never thought I'd get out of bed
Because of you boy, (I do boy)
Such a fool boy (such a fool)

Cool :) .

Assalamu'alaikum...
Oohh... forgot, changed the song again, heheh. Like this one a lot, it's really cute. People keep telling me I should see the video clip, but I'm not really a big fan of tuning to MTV ( what?? you don't like TRL?? Nguahaha... err, it's not that I don't like it, I just don't feel the need to tune in every single day), so we'll see how that works out.

Ta!

Wassalam... (penutup kene ade ;P )

Assalamu'alaikum....

Took the Emode IQ test just now, and this is (part) of my result:

"We also compared your answers with others who have taken the test, and according to the sorts of questions you got correct, we can tell your Intellectual Type is a Facts Curator.

This means you are highly intelligent and have picked up an impressive and unique collection of facts and figures over the years. You've got a remarkable vocabulary and exceptional math skills — which puts you in the same class as brainiacs like Bill Gates. And that's just some of what we know about you from your test results. "

Hohoho.... Bill Gates? Cool! Now if I can be just as rich, powerful and successful, I'd be set for life :-) .
Take the Emode IQ test here


Okay, I need to go pray and get to class. Ciao! Wassalam...

Assalamu'alaikum...

Dah tukar lagu... Lagu lame sung by a little known person kat Michigan nie, hehehe... there was four of us there, cube teke sape nyanyi, sape main gitar, and sape lagi background 2 orang (hehehehe.... dengar sampai habes, senang je nak tau sape) .... kengkadang lepas gian, why not? This was done right after dinner cooked by yours truly and cik siti wann kempis...

Moving on now..

Got this in my friendster.. lame tak wat mende2 camnie :) ....



*Do the usual stuff..read to know more bout the
somebody and copy the whole thing and paste it
on ur Bulletin.Tada!

I AM: sleepy

I WANT: to have a room that cleans itself

I HAVE: a camera that decided to suddenly go dead on me

I WISH: my hair can be super straight without me having to fork out cash at the salon

I HATE: people who lie, betray and are basically ass-wipes

I MISS: puasa-ing at home

I FEAR: that I don't find love

I HEAR: songs in my head

I SEARCH: for a singing teacher... miss my chorus club!

I WONDER: when I can be aggresive enuff to grab the world by the balls

I REGRET: taking people for granted

I LOVE: having people i love around me

I ACHE: to perform in public

I ALWAYS: plan things that never happens

I AM NOT: happenin!

I DANCE: 24/7.... love to dance, babe!

I SING: all the time too... sometimes really good, other times badly enuff that I tell meself to shut up

I CRY: when I'm sad... I used to all the time, not anymore though

I AM NOT ALWAYS: forgiving, contrary to popular beliefs... not always a mean bitch either

I WRITE: when I want to

I WIN: some

I LOSE: some

I CONFUSE: a lot of people on whether I'm notty or nice... a bit of both, actually, though I'm not THAT notty

I NEED: family, friends, and good wardrobe

I SHOULD: be doing something more useful with my time
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Yes Or No...

x. You keep a diary: yes, kinda

x. You like to cook: yes, most definitely

x. You have a secret you have not shared with anyone: Yes

x. You believe in love: Yes

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The weirdest person you know: no one's weird... okay, myself, then

the Loudest Person you Know: dayang kat michigan, muahahahah

The Sexiest Person you Know: like I'm gonna say

The Cutest Person you Know: Yanie, my sis, my best gal in Ireland

Your closest friend(s): do I have to name them all? people, you know who you are :) ... and I love you all!!

The People that Knows the Most about you: Nobody... I only give pieces of myself away, so if you wanna know all, get a conference with all of my friends

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Do You...?

Have a(any) crush(es): for the time being, not really

Want to get married: yes, much later, though

Get motion Sickness: nope!

Think you're a health freak: not really

Get along with your parents: yes :) ... luve me mum and dada

Like thunderstorms: heck no... gile ke?


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NATURAL HAIR COLOR: Black

CURRENT HAIR COLOR: Black with grown-out red highlights

EYE COLOR: black

BIRTHPLACE: Kay Elle

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(FAVORITES )

NUMBER: 1 and 5

COLOR: pink, red, baby blue, lavender


DAY: wednesday and friday

MONTH: december (my birthmonth! )

SONG:
_currently: stacie orrico's "There's More To Life" , Justin's "Senorita", Maroon 5's "Harder To Breathe", Jason Mraz's "Remedy"
_all time: Mariah Carey's "Always Be My Baby", Sir Elton's "Sacrifice" (Fact: I get all jello-like whenever I hear a guy sings that song... even if he is gay)

FOOD: escargots (yummy) , nasik lemak, bihun goreng mamak, koay teow kerang... adoi lapar

SEASON: spring and fall

SPORT: watching: skateboarding and football
participating: I don't do sports, haha... just kidding, I love basketball, though I suck at it

DRINK: Irish creme italian soda, diet vanilla coke, Cafe Blanco over at MuJo, Starbuck's caramel macchiato (yes, I am expensive to go out with)
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( PREFERENCES )

CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT : both (devil devil devil)

CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE? Both, depending on weather

MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE? white

VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE? vanilla
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( IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU.... )

CRIED? nope

HELPED SOMEONE? yes

BOUGHT SOMETHING? Yes

GOTTEN SICK? nope

GONE TO THE MOVIES? hell no

GONE OUT FOR DINNER? gone out for sahur adelah... ade orang tuh mati-mati ajak gie Denny's

WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? errr... hehe.. nooooo

TALKED TO AN EX? No

MISSED AN EX? No

WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? No

HAD A SERIOUS TALK? No

MISSED SOMEONE? yes

HUGGED SOMEONE? yes.. well half hug anyway

FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? No

FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? No

Assalamu'alaikum....
Wow, dah lame gile rasenye tak update, been so busy with homework, project and stuff. Hehehe.. actuallynye ade je mase kalau nak update, tapi I used that time to hafal moves from my classes, hehehe. Ooo... lupe lak, slamat berpuase to those who do. Love the fasting month :) .
Last night was Halloween, and I decided to dress up this year and get into the hype of wearing costumes. Hehehe... Jen and I raided her trunk when we were over at her house last fall break weekend, and I borrowed her goddess costume, but I added wings to make it into an angel's costume instead, though I forgot to purchase myself a halo to make it complete. But still, people could tell. Nguahahah... ingatkan smalam nak bawak orang lain celebrate with me, tapi all plans went to hell and I ended up just bringing one other person with me to go celebrate with Jen and her friends. Verdict: interesting night :), though there were times that I got bored, though. You can only do some things so many times .....
Hari nie nak kene wat program, program mode all the way up to Monday. Bloody hell, sume bende susah. I hate it bile dah lepas tulis coding, pastu kene padam sebab the fucking thing doesn't work. Oh well....
Thanks Hakam for the camera :) ....
Okay, me need to move it and get my butt ready for the group meeting. Till much, much later. Bantut, Yong, miss both of you! :)
Wassalam..........