Assalamu'alaikum....

It's 6.15am, Tuesday morning, less than 24 hours ago I just got back from Wisconsin, at 9.30am today I'll be on my way to Seattle, WA. Needless to say, tired nak rak. Less than 2 hours sleep last night, migraine in the car the night before. Thanks so much to Zaimi and Napi for driving the whole night yesterday, kalau tak hari ni sure stok yg cam nak makan orang penat instead of the current pening-pening lalat condition. Sempat lagi tuh nak mem blog, have to if not my eyes would start to close and I'll drift off to sleep, terlepas flight kang, tak ke naye jek.

Anyway, Wisconsin was cool, campus is sooo pretty. Student Union boleh minum beer sambil tgk tasik, how cool is that (the tgk tasik part, not the beer lah). Best of all, dapat jumpe Kong!!! And Soon Sim!!! Haven't seen them for 2 years oledy. Congrats to Kong on Purdue's 2nd place in women's basketball. Star playa, tgh sakit also can still place second. Also jumpe Fiejo, who placed 1st in women;s basketball (played against Kong) AND managed to nab MVP. Cheeewah! Terrer ex-classmate :).

You never realize how much screaming you can do until you actually do it. I was annoyed so many times during the weekend, it was tiring. Pelik betul. I hate being screamed at, so the only time I do it to other people is when the person first does it to me. No more, I tell you, no more putting myself in that situation, tak nak dah, tobat dah. My friend was like "Eh, why ask you to walk 3 miles one?. So far". My sentiments exactly. Malas lah nak komen pape. Kesimpulan, have to just suck it up lah, it's not like I can reverse time and do things differently. Poyo.

Aaaaaaaaahhhh benci benci benci. I'm still annoyed. It's like.... what?? Did you just say that to me?? Up satu point to dah malas dah, so senyap jek sebab takut kang meletup. This is one of those times I wish my bro was here so that he can mirror my sentiment physically. Grrr...

At least I'm going to Seattle today. Better go buang sampah, I got half an hour to do that and pakai kasut and tunggu kat luar. I'll be fine.... I just HATE HATE HATE being screamed at. Hate it.

Assalamu'alaikum.....

Okay, so apparently now I'm gonna start at Microsoft on the 31st... and going to the Midwest Games. It's like moving from one extreme to another, one minute I have nothing to do, next minute tetibe byk lah plak bendenye. Gi Wisocnsin on Friday, balik Monday, fly out to Seattle on Tuesday, start work on Wednesday. Ugh.

On the plus side, I'm flying to Seattle first class. First class baby!! Ade jugak eloknye that my I-20 habis lambat than dijangka. Of course, balik sini balik fly coach lah, murah. Bestnye dapat merase first class kat tanah US nie, LoL. Nak sendiri beli tiket, jgn harap. Still rase stewardess MAS jugak yg lawa, even though MAS rugi juta-juta every year, apparently.

Just got my hari cut kat Douglas J salon tadi. Nothing reminds a girl that she hasn't been there for a while than to have your normal stylist forget who you were for the first couple of minutes. Erk. Nasib baik takyah tip, kalau tak ade jugak tip berkurang tuh. Scott gave me a nice classic bob, which I like, but I like my previous hair cut better, ni cam a bit too pendek for my bulat face. But I'll rock it, I always do :) . It was raining cats and dogs when I came in for my appointment that although it was only a 5-minute walk from my car to the salon, by the time I got there, my jeans were soaking wet, and I even had my umbrella. In the middle of my haircut, some of Scott's colleagues came over to comment on what a nice job he's doing with my bob. Suddenly there was a parade of tattoo-clad people, with only underwear on, just running outside the salon. It was so weird, all of them had tattoos all over their bodies, which actually wasn't the weird part. The weird part is that they had no clothes on! Just undies! Running in the rain! Weird people.

Last Monday, Linda and I watched The DaVinci Code at Quality 16. The movie was good, though I did like the book better. I'm not exactly sure how does someone who didn't read the book would follow what's going on, because there was a lot of stuff not explained in the movie, and of course there's also all the symbols involved. But I guess it would boost the sales of the book, then, if people care enough to buy the book after seeing the movie. Sir Ian Mckellen is absolutely everywhere! The X-Men movies, the LOTR trilogies, and now this.... too bad he's gay, he's very good looking for an old guy.

I'm rambling, and it's getting late, I better get on with the packing thing. Later!

Pindah, pindah dan pindah lagik.....

Okay, so a couple of days ago, baru find out from I-Center yg I-20 bakal siap lagi lambat dari yg dijangkakan. Celake tol. So kene tolak internship start date jadi June 6th. Aiyak. So maknenye kne spend Memorial weekend kat Michigan... or Wisconsin, if I decide to go to the Midwest Games. Sume org cakap Wisconsin cantik. Ye ke? Cantik ke? Dah takde org dah nak jumpe... everyone my age is at home. Boo hoo. What am I gonna do with kids around me running around in dipers? Okay.. I'm exaggerating, maybe not diapers, but you get the point. Everyone's gonna be younger than me!! I'm gettin' old, man.

Afzan baru balik M'sia semalam, excited habis. Hopefully I'll be able to come home at the end of this year, too. It'll be more than 2 years since I've seen home come December, so I was thinking I'm gonna go back during the Winter vacation to get my visa renewed, among other things. I just miss home.... the smell of good food, dirty diapers, the screaming voice of kids, Malaysian TV, shopping at Mid Valley, seeing random celebs at 1 Utama (unfortunately, I don't recognize a lot of 'em nowadays, too many Malaysian celebs).

I have a beef to pick with this modeling agency back home which, I heard through a friend, only takes in people who are of mixed parentage or Pan-Asian. I think that's incredibly rude, it's like you're saying if you look pure Malay, or pure Chinese or Indian, then you're not good enough or pretty enough to be represented. It's like... what the hell?? How more blatantly rude can you be?

Enough ramblings for today...

Okay, so right now I'm mad. I've been basically working on packing up my stuff for one week straight now, and today is the last day I have to finish up all my packing, and I'm STILL finding crap around my house. Worse or all, they're not even MY crap. I'm just so mad right now, I'm downright seething. Nak buang, bukan barang sendiri. But there's just so mauch stuff that people randomly leave at my house and then tak reti nak ambik balik.

So here's what I'm gonna do. All things that are not MINE, will be put outside of the apartment, along with stuff that I don't want anymore but may be of use to other people like my computer monitor, drawers, kuali..). So if anyone sees anything of theris, they can damn well take it. If it's not theirs but they want it, then they can still take it. I don't care I don't care I don't care. I just want the things to be OUT. OUT OUT OUT I TELL YOU!!!!

If you think I give a shit whether it's expensive or not or whether the original owner still wants it or not... you have seriously underestimated how pissed off I actually am right now. I hate packing, and I especially hate packing stuff that's not mine. Fuck this.

Okay, so my last post was like barely 10 minutes ago, but I was bored so I decided to watch some TV. Vanessa Minnillo was on MTV, looooove her. She's so hot! Gorgeous, gorgeous woman. I want her hair, her lips, her skin, her body.... basically I just wanna be her. Lol. She is an absolute hottie! Obeserve:

I also have a soft spot for France's rugby team. The players are .... emmm.... drool-worthy. Observe this one:

Okay, so this isn't the most decent photo on earth, but trust me, this is actually one of the more modest ones from the Locker Room Nudes / Dieux du Stade: The French National Rugby Team coffee table book. Wait, there's book you say? Apparently there is! A few of them in fact. Every year they pose nude for the above mentioned book. There are lots of provocative, black and white photos of 'em. Loads. Just try and find the book on Amazon. Apparently photography afficionados love this book because of the "style" and "lighting". I'm sure women would agree with me that lighting has nothing to do with why I like looking at Julien Aries. Je t'aime beaucoup....

Assalamu'alaikum...

Wah, celake betul, credit card dah max out. How the hell did that happen??? Oh wait... I know.... I spent like crazy in Seattle during the interview.... then I spent some more buying shoes... then some more buying clothes. Dude I got to stop spending so much. So it's off to Marshall's and Briarwood Mall to return the shoes I bought. Damn damn damn. Maybe I can return some other crap that I bought... but I've pretty much worn them all. Ooops.

Congrats to Lynn on the impending marriage. God bless and lots of happy wishes.

Assalamu'alaikum....

Afzan and I went to Great Lakes Crossing smalam.... shopping beli2 barang sume... omigosh satu minggu shopping jek, since I had nothing appropriate to wear to work. Everything either too tight or too short , LoL. Ade satu baju tu, I can't even remember why I bought it, sure tgh sale buy 1 free 2 yg dekat Wet Seal tuh, sgt tak appropriate nak pakai gi mane2 pun, nak pakai kat umah ade labuci lah plak kat colla. What the heck. So terpakse ler carik baju2 yg kurang budak-budak and more mature and at least jatuh bawah bontot instead of cover setengah jek.

Setelah byk2 kali shopping.... found a few stuff to wear :) . Hopefully enough for the upcoming three months (pakai baju yg same je lah). However, I found plenty of shoes!! Omigosh kasut kasut kasut merate. My Nike is so old, it started of as blue sekarang tukar warne jadi kelabu (serious tak tipu). Bosan dah pakai Nike, so I set my sights on these pair of Asics running shoes (senang sket, kene kejar, lari jek). Specifically, Asics Gel-Kayano, one of the better running shoes with lotsa padding. Best-best. Jangan tanye price, suffice to say, bengkrap lah jugak. Tak masuk lagi the pair of Stuart Weitzman's I bought at Neiman Marcus (Prada ngan Ferragamo mahal cam nak rak). Hehehe.... on sale yg teramat sgt kot, barely $100, so I think mmg dah out of season though the newer ones nampak lebey kurang same. Sgt cute. Observe:
My shoes aren't exactly like this, 'cause instead of a buckle, I have a small ribbon, pastu ade black trim around the heels, but the plaid is close enough. I already bought a pair of Nine West and Ralph Lauren yg sekarang nak kene pulangkan so bleh cover these pair of shoes.. lol. Why do like these pumps? 'Cause they're soooo comfy. Sgt sedap. Most high heels, pakai nak try pun dah sakit2 dah, these don't. So terpakse ler sacrifice the other two pairs so bleh afford this one, even though the Ralph Lauren pun sedap gak. Ughh... why can't I be rich. Bley simpan sume.

Beli earrings lagik... and baju (of course). Gabak gile Great Lakes Crossing, though takleh compare Mid Valley. Penat jalan ngan Afzan one whole day. Dah lah on the way there, kene force sesat sebab exit tutup. Mase tuh lah baru figure out yg MapQuest ni bile time-time die bodo, mmg macam sial. Rupe-rupenye takyah pun amek the exit, bleh je straight stay on I-696 E nak masuk I-75. Celake betul, habes kete aku, dah lah freeway cam sial jek byk lubang lah, bump lah, ape2 ntah lagik. AAAAAAA.... ngamuk lah ni. Sesat setengah jam since exit dah tutup... last2 jumpe jugak freeway yg dicarik. On the way balik, dah belajar dah yg Mapquest suke soh pusing2, which isn't so bad kalau bukan sebab Michigan freeway pun cam kambing, construction dah habes2 eloknye tak jugak. Balik tuh suke2 stay on freeway sendiri, sampai jugak umah even tho about 20 minutes longer than "jalan pendek" Mapquest.

In about a week, nak kene pindah. Ughh... bosan nye lah. Seb baik umah baru ni on central, kalau tak, tak kuase nak pindah. Every year pindah, asal summer je kene pack. Crap makin byk plak tuh. Grrr... Umah baru nie, personal space kurang sket, sebab takdek storage, so sume bende cram masuk dalam bilik, siap dgn luggage2 skali. Hopefully muat. Cakap pasal luggage, smalam beli travel bag for 25 bucks kat Burlington Coat Factory. Ingat nak beli yg 10 bucks punye, tapi cipoet sgt lah pulak, even tho mmg nak beli hand luggage saje. So upgrade sket. Nyahahaha... punye excited nak pegi Seattle, beli luggage baru, baju baru, kasut baru.... LoL.

Wargh, kene pegi pack barang.... malasnyeeee.....

Assalamu'alaikum....

I'm officially spending my summer in Seattle!! Woohooo!! I'm so happy. The day that I got my offer letter was the weirdest day of my life, honestly. My mood went from an absolute low to an all time high :) . Here's what happened. I had my offer from the "Small Company" (which shall remain nameless for now) on the table, but I was still waiting for the Big Company because after all is said and done, it's my first choice. Anyway, Smally gave me a deadline to reply by Monday, at 5pm. Biggie, on the other hand, couldn't get to me that early. So I decided that I was going to accept Smally's offer, contingent on a few things of course. But somehow my reply never got to the right people, so the deal fell through. I found out Tuesday morning and was so bummed out, because I did everything that was expected of me but there was a miscommunication somewhere. However, half an hour later, Microsoft called and said "Congratulations!".

I'm excited to go! Seattle is gorgeous, and the job experience of course would be priceless. I know how lucky I am to get this, so hopefully nothing happens to screw this up. I can't wait to go! Dunno yet when I'm leaving, but I'm starting at the end of this month, so probably sometime before or during Memorial Day I'll be flying down there.

I bought the "God of War" game for my PS2, along with the accompanying book. I think Deera played it and told me the game is cool. And it really is, I'm definitely not a gamer but I can appreciate the game. Unfortunately the music on the game scares the shit out of me, so I don't play it at night unless Afzan is there with me. We tagged teamed to play the thing, LoL. Honestly, I can see why the game is rated M (for Mature). Exhibit A: naked boobies all around. Large ones. Exhibit B: one way that you can obtain Red Orbs to upgrade weapons is to have sex with two women on a bed (this is early on in the game). By now you can pretty much figure out that guys are predominantly the creator and purveyors of the game. Damn, it's a good game, but I feel really awkward with the boobies all around. Ugh, why does it have to be so good but be so dirty?

I'm sleepy, and I'm gonna play the game for a bit before I got to sleep. Catch ya later peeps!

Assalamu'alaikum......

I'm so confused right now, I hate when I have to make tough decisions like this... and I'm not even out of school yet! I have one good offer on the table, but what I really want is to work with the bigger company (the subject of my obsession... see pervious post). Don't get me wrong, the small company sound great, the project sounds really cool and I would get really valuable hands-on experience working with them. Instead of just working on one thing, I would be able to expand my role (contingent on my performance, of course). But the big company is.. well... big. It's well established, people I've talked to really like working there, and I also like the project that they're working on, too. I've been down to the campus, loved the atmosphere, enjoyed the people I interviewed with, and generally had more of a sense on what I should accomplish by the end of my internship. Most importantly, I've been trying to score and interview for about 3 years now, and this is the first time that I actually felt like the position and the timing is right. So one party needs an immediate answer, while my first choice can't tell me what they decide yet. I guess this is a good problem to have, but it's stressing me out a bit.

What I really want is to work on something I like during the summer. User research, usability testing, interface design.... things that I worked really hard in class to learn and want to apply. I want to work. And of course, I want to get paid (that way I don't have to take on a lot of hours on my PT job next fall). I want to be where I can be most useful. To top of trying to make my impending decision, my passport is expiring by the end of this month. Blinkin' 'eck. Perfect, now I have to spend more money trying to renew the damn thing. Oh, and of course, there's the CPT-expedite fee thing, hich will set me back another $100. Man, this whole internship thing better have a happy ending.

Argh, I'll be so glad when I get everything settled. Oh, and I found out today that my arms are officially huge. Not even my new pair of shoes can cheer me up now :( .