Me singing "Torn" by Natalie Imbruglia, if you can't see the video then go here (in case you REALLY do not know what the above sentence means.... click on the "here" word... the underline means it's a link... aiyohhhhh)



Assalamu'alaikum.....

Turkey Weekend is over.... people are done giving thanks and devouring giant ugly birds. Turkeys everywhere can now breathe easily as they mourn their brethren who got eaten. Poor lil' bastards. As Merry said, "Turkeys are the dumbest birds on earth", why she said that I dunno.

Thanksgiving day was a bust, I won't go into details but here's a little advice: never go out in 7 degrees weather wearing a short black dress. So not a good idea. The day after Thanksgiving was better, Nik, Afzan and I upheld the Black Friday tradition and went shopping at Tweleve Oaks mall. There goes my paycheck. I bought 5 tops, a pair of gorgeous earrings (I know someone likes 'em *wink wink*) and a matching necklace. I also bought two pairs of sunglasses, one for me and one to replace Kirah's that I broke :( . Sorry K. Anyway, while waiting for our food, I managed to get a job.. sorta. This lady gave me her card and wants me to translate a bunch o' stuff from English to Malay. Score!

The day after was even better :) . It was GempitaFest 2005, and although the turn out wasn't spectacular, it was a pretty fun event. I met up with one of the coolest (and prettiest, I might add) girl, Adriana from Western Michigan, who has this amazing voice and pretty excellent showmanship, I might add. I wasn't expecting to see any of my batch, but lo and behold, Abe from RPI was there, doing his thing on stage in a red t-shirt with a turned up collar. Apparently he hasn't graduated yet, it's all details really, so I won't get into them. Suffice to say... glad to see someone who's about as old as I am, LoL. It made me feel less old meself. Also got to see the freshies, whom I never get to see 'cause their asses live on Central. Kak Fezah masak beriani sedap, as always. Wann and Nicholas went home early, so they didn't get to hang out with me, Travis and Nik at Travis's place later that night. I, of course, the party animal, promptly fell asleep and hijacked Travis's bed about a half hour after I got there, LoL. Poor thing had to go sleep outside with Nik.

And now, it is back back back to the grindstone... ho hum...

Wassalam...

HAPPY TURKEY DAY

Assalamu'alaikum.....

Today's Thanksgiving... Happy Thanksgiving Day to all who celebrate it. Aihhh... it's so freakin' cold outside, I really don't wanna go anywhere. Think I'm just gonna stay home and leave the turkey eating to other people. Me too sleepy to do anything.... ni pun baru sgt bangun.

Lepas bangun, check email, pastu ade org mesej kat Friendster. So of course, gi lah check Friendster pulak kan. Lepas balas mesej, saje tgk nak update profile sendiri. Tetibe nampak korner yg tulis Top Network Searches tu. Tgk lah Melayu carik ape.. :

1. nokia 8800


2. hazliana


3. menindih tubuhnya


4. selak kain


5. terlondeh baju


6. terangkat angkat
   
   
7. isterimu isteriku jua


8. kak lina


9. robert pattinson


10. pakcikku

Bongok... time-time camni lah rase malu gile ngan network sendiri. Carik lah mende lain yg ilmiah sket, kalau nak tak senonoh pun, jgn lah buat kat Friendster tuh. Adoooiiiii.....

Okaylah, nak kene tkar baju, satgi mau Thanksgiving lunch ngan Wann, Nicholas and Nik. Ta peeps!

Wassalam.................

HARRY POTTER AND THE CUTI-CUTI MICHIGAN

Nyahaha... dah start cuti dah. Yes yes... boleh berpoya-poya kat rumah, lepak makan tido tengok tv.... bestnye bestnye bestnye. Takde nak terkejar-kejar pegi kelas, pegi keje, pegi group meeting, pegi ntah hape-hape ntah lagik. Bertuah punye Michigan, elok-elok cuti baru nak start, terus snow. Ambek ko, tak kasi can langsung.

Ni baru lepas balik menemuramah Mbak Susan pasal gamelan punye collection. Elok-elok dah sampai ofis die baru sedar interview questions tertinggal kat rumah, tersalah ambik file mase nak kluar umah. Nak tanak kene lah spontan jek, aih malunye. Tapi die pun tak tau byk sangat pasal history of the collection, so interview pun takdelah lame sgt. Tak sampai sejam, mengaku je lah lepas tu yg soklan-soklan tertinggal kat umah. Ni lepas ni nak kene call School of Music mintak cakap ngan dosen gamelan tuh. Erk.... malehnye nak buat research paper ni.

Cakap pasal paper, dah due weekend keje buat paper jek. Asal org lain tanye "Free tak malam ni?", asyik kene jawab "Tak, ade paper due." , "Takleh kluar, paper tak siap lagi". Wtf, asal grad students takde social life ni? Asal asal asal? Kalau tak kene buat paper, kene buat group projects, kalau tak yg itu, ade mende lain pulak. Hampeh, time-time camni lah nak balik umah soh mak kawinkan jek.

Haaa.. Semalam tgk Harry Potter ngan Afzan ngan Nik. Lepas balik kelas je terus amek kunci kete drive gi Showcase (yep, I'm still driving. Takkan baru eksiden sekali due terus nak give up kot... plus sape lagi nak drive kete bertuah tuh). Kitorang tgk show yg start kol 8.30 mlm. Kol 11 tuh baru kluar panggung, by then mate dah separa bengkak sebab sedey tgk budak hensem mati. Wooo.... ape lah nasib ko budak hensem. Sape tak tgk lagi movei and tak bace lagik buku die, pandai2 lah figure out sape budak hensem. Sgt cute, encem encem. Movie tuh lame lah gak, tapi tak rase cam lame sebab best. Sronok gile tgk, budak2 main character sume dah terrer berlakon, okay lah... takdelah bergantung kat special effects jek.

Smalam before tido sempat lah borak ngan sorang kanak-kanak nie, lame tak chat ngan die, plus takdelah rapat sangat pun in the first place tapi boleh lah. Lepas due tige menet chat, baru perasan ayat die almost sume start ngan "Boyfren I... ", sebagai contoh: "Boyfren I cakap tempat tuh best", "Boyfren I datang pick dengan kete die", "Boyfren I itu...", "Boyfren I ini...". Erk... sedikit meluat lepas dah lame-lame chat tuh, sebab ye lah kan, ayat sume same jek. Plus macam org tak kenal je boyfren die sape, bukan best sgt pun. Nyahaha... tak ke mampus kalau budak tuh bace entry ni. Biar... rase kan, setengah jam habes camtuh jek, org nak tau cite pasal pendapat die, asyik2 masuk pasal boipren die. Adoi. May I not become like that ever, amin.

Skarang tgh kat library tunggu appointment potong rambut kat Aveda. Lame dah tak potong, rambut nampak tak kemas, plus rimas sket. Tgh nak figure out nak buat bangs ke idak, salah potong kang muke nampak lagi bulat. Bestnye lahhhhh hari ni dah start cuti, bleh potong rambut, bleh lepak, satgi bleh gi K Mart pulang baju... bleh buat macam-macam.

Cepat laaaaah Thanksgiving sale.

Wassalam...

Assalamu'alaikum....

I don't undestand. I don't understand why. I don't know what to think, what to feel, how to act, how to react. One minute I was dancing and bowling and loving myself and my life, the next minute years of friendship went down the tube, and over what? A misunderstanding? The phone not working? Me not calling back right when I'm supposed just because I was distracted? I don't understand and I'm so confused right now. How is it that just 24 hours before I was dressing up in a pretty sweater, feeling good about myself, and right now I don't even know what just happened? How is this my fault? What did I do to even deserve this?

Assalamu'alaikum.....

It's 3.40 am on a Saturday... I have just gotten back from bowling with my fellow SI-ans and Nik, who was more excited about bowling than I was. Originally I didn't wanna go 'cause I really, really wanted to go out dancing, but I'm glad I went 'cause the bowling alley was shakin', LoL. I saw my groupmate, Kaveri and her husband there. Libby, my GSI, was also there. It was awesome, people were dancing and no one was paying much attention to bowling. What a relaxing night it was, it was so great to just not think about papers and homework and just have fun with a bunch of people and a really great friend :) . LoL ... good thing he's never gonna read this, terpuji plaks, LoL. But seriously, it was great, no drama, no complications, just fun. Too bad Wann wasn't there with Nicholas, it would've been "funner" (is there such a word?)

I'm a little pumped for someone who hasn't gotten much sleep today, LoL. Nik is already out cold by now, I think. I just couldn't sleep and decided to just blog a bit. Two updates in one day, I'm on a roll, hahaha. I'm excited for the football game today, it's supposed to be an easy win but you never know.... Michigan vs. Indiana, at noon. It's gonna be a good day :)

I'm happy right now. Hope it'll last.

Wassalam...

GRAD SCHOOL IS HARD!!!!

Assalamu'alaikum.....

I am at work, half-asleep and going completely insane. Why? Because I slept at 6.30 am today, had class at 9am, then it was off to work from 11.30am to 2pm. And if you even THINK that my day is going to be over right afterwards, you are seriously wrong because at 4pm, I have dance class. Whoop-da-dee.

Things didn't go quite as planned this morning. I had my short assignment due at 9am on CTools and spent the whole night doing it. At 6.15 am, about 400 words short of what the maximum length of the paper should be (which is never a good thing; I used to major in bullshit paper), I decided that I have effectively run out of ideas, points and filler words for my paper. I was also feeling the starts of a pounding headache, which I then put a stop to by taking two caplets of Excedrin.

Now, by that time, my butt has been parked on the chair for about... let's see... 8 hours straight. I'm not kidding y'all, that's like a whole night's sleep right there.... which is not that unusual for a college student. What was unusual for me was... running out of words to write. I had the points... I just ran out of stuff to elaborate. To top it all of, I wasn't supposed to go to sleep 'cause the plan was to stay up, go to class, work, THEN collapse, but the moment I sat on my couch, my body just shut down (probably because of the Excedrin) . I fell asleep. When did I wake up? 11.25am, an hour after class ended and about 5 minutes before I was supposed to go to work. What woke me up? A phonecall from a telemarketer. for once they served some sort of a purpose.

So I came to work, luckily only 5 minutes late, which I apologized profusely to Steve for, and right now my tummy is not feeling that good. I was chain-eating candy all night just to keep the sugar rush up and keep me from getting sleepy while working on my paper. I'm very fortunate that while staying up kinda wrecks my day in that I can't study that well or think properly, I can still function somewhat normally. It's a good thing too that I'm not having one of those major headchaes that usually comes after a whole night of not sleeping.

Man, I so do not want to work right now... Thank god it's gonna be over in 20 minutes...

HALLOWEEN 2005

Aha! Setelah sekian lame takleh nak update blogger, it's finally fixed! Again! Hampeh tol, there goes my multitude of updates....

Last weekend was Halloween.... well actually today is officially Halloween, but that's just a minor technicality. Anyway, a few of us dressed up ..... hehehehe..... yes, I am 23 years old, and I still think dressing up is fun. I thought I was never gonna get my costume(s) in time, but we went on Friday night to Halloween USA, then K Mart, and I found a costume that I liked :) .

So on Friday I was a Dark Princess, while on Saturday I was a Tavern Wench :) (in case you're wondering what a wench is... it's just a girl.... so I was just a girl who worked in a bar LOL). Saturday was also daylight savings time, so an extra hour of sleeping (or, erm, partying) was available. What joy. Oh, Nik dressed up as a Dark Red Knight, unfortunately people kept mistaking him for a Star Trek character (cue the "beam me up Scotty" jokes... and references to the USS Enterprise). Wann dressed up as a cowgirl in jeans, jean jacket and my cowboy hat (my barn Dance cowboy hat sees the outside of my apartment yet again). All in all, the weekend wasn't as crazy as I hoped it would be, but it was pretty cool all the same.

So that was how my weekend went. Hahaha... Raya is coming soooonnn.... Selamat Hari Raya to everyone!!!!!!

Wassalam....

MICHIGAN (27) vs. PENN. STATE (25)

I have never, ever been so happy to be at a game. It was.... awesome. Even looking back at it, man, it was just... awesome. "Awesome" wouldn't exactly be the perfect word to describe everything that happened on Saturday's game against PSU, but it would be the perfect word to use to describe that one last, miraculous, highly unprobable second.

Never mind Henne played like fuck, fumbled the ball and helped them score a touchdown. Never mind that we weren't exactly at the top of our game that day. Never mind that our voices were hoarse from yelling "Get him!" or "Henne, come ON!". Well, okay..... not exactly never mind. But all of the frustration and the "nak-tendang-bebola-orang" tendencies were forgotten the moment that TD was made...... a wooooohooo! Serves the PSU people right, they weren't being nice guests in our stadium. Nik, Seng Keat, me, Afzan, Kirah, Teh and Wahida (nyahah! majoriti pompuan) had the unfortunate luck of sitting (standing) riiiiiggghtttt in front of some die-hard PSU supporters who were loud, rude, mean and lind-stinkin' drunk. And those were just the girls. Throughout the games, they (and when I say "they", I also mean "us") kept getting pelted with random things ranging from water bottles to grapes to balled-up paper. All I can say to my darling fellow Wolverines is ... aim better!!! I'm not your target!! Sheesh.

As I looked at the pictures taken during the game, I wish I have season tickets. Of course, then Henne's many fumbles came into mind and then I thought, maybe season tickets weren't exactly the best idea.....

So anyway, lemme start again with all the stuff that's going on since Friday. Friday, I had my normal lectures, a meeting with a client regarding the SI 501 project, and of course, dance class. I came in to the office in the afternoon to say hi to everyone, then I came again after dance class 'cause Nik working and I thought I left my sunglasses there from my previous visit. Turns out.... everybody, with the exception of Merry who was on vacation, was there. I'd rather not elaborate on what happened but what was supposed to be a 15-minute "hey-have-you-seen-my-glasses" visit turned out to last 45 minutes with me dodging bullets and put into some pretty uncomfortable positions. Oh, such drama.

Saturday after the game, Nik and I went Acapellooza 2005 held at the Rackham Auditorium. Wann and Nicholas joined us a wee bit later. It was pretty excellent, I'm glad I went. The groups were pretty good and extremely funny. Nik bought the CD, and I really like the songs. I'm a little dissapointed with Amaizin' Blue, I really thought they could've been better, but Dicks and Janes were excellent :) .

All in all, a pretty good end to a week wraought with homework, work, and more work...

Wassalam...

Assalamu'alaikum....

Nyahaha... I'm getting pretty regular about the whole updating thing now that Fall Break is coming near. Unfortunately, I'm updating in class (never a good idea to put me in front of a fully working computer).

Just read an email from Ayun. I'm okay, dearie, thanks for asking. Ayun was worried about my mental well-being 'cause I've been acting like a basket case lately. Don't worry laling, I'm frazzled but still (barely) sane. Nik and Wann are keeping me sorta sane (actually they sometimes contribute to the insanity and are detrimental to my mental health, LOL... but it's a welcomed distraction... sort of.... nyahahah)

I cannot wait for Fall Break... classes are insane, I have take home midterms and other long-paper shit.... adoi sakit perut :( . But soon it's going to be RAYA!! (Mabuk, sendiri baru puase 2 hari).

Typing in class is noisy.

Wassalam....

Assalamu'alaikum.....

I'm taking a five-minute break from my homework just to rest my hands a bit, my finger has this pencil identation that came about from holding my pencil for too long. So I decided to abuse my fingers another way: by typing in random stuff to update my blog.

Nik has just finished being an absolute meanie to me... as usual. "Sorry I'm busy" said in an unapologetic voice makes me feel sooooo appreciated (insert your own brand of sarcasm here). Am I worried he's gonna find out I'm writing this? Abso-bloody-lutely not 'cause he never reads my blogger, for one. So if he finds out, I then KNOW FOR SURE that there are busy-bodies residing in Ann Arbor (or Malaysia) who are hell-bent on causing trouble in other people's lives. So there. Here's my little experiment: Is Nik gonna find out that I wrote about him and said he was mean to me? If he is, how? let's watch :) .

School was tough, as usual. So many things to do, so many professors to suck up to, so many classmates to make friends with... and of course, so many people to hate. However, I am loving the School of Information building (it's in West Hall) even though it is 4 storeys high and it has NO elevators. Wow. But the student lounge is absolute heaven. Mini kitchen, TV, comfy couch, two computers (one is a Mac, one is a PC), a printer/scanner/photocopy machine, vending machines..... all in one cozy room that is the perfect temperature. Bliss... ahh... I did my homework there yesterday. I basically parked my ass in the SI building from 10am up to 11pm. By the time I was ready to leave, I was the only one in the building. Spooky. But most of my homework got done, thank goodness.

My car still looks like a wreck, but at least it's still doing it's purpose of transporting me to places that I need to go. I notice that I tend to wake up later because I know that I can drive myself down to central. On the other hand, I'm no longer missing class just because I woke up 5 minutes before class is supposed to start. Ahah!

Dance class is getting more interesting. We're learning the strong style now, so my arms hurt extra every class. And hear I thought flicking the scarf is hard to do, holding your arms up for a good 15 minutes while moving your ass to a song is enough to make you sweat buckets after a 1-1/2 hour class. On the plus side, I am no longer taking my shoulders for granted.

My eyes are sleepy, and I still have to finish up my homework. I'll maybe pen again tomorrow... or later. Sometime..

Wassalam...........

BERITA TERKINI : KERETA DI TANDUK RUSA

Sabtu, 8 Oktober 2005 - Sebuah kereta Ford Contour di timpa kemalangan pada jam 6.30 petang semasa dalam perjalanan ke Westland, Michigan. Sewaktu itu, kereta tersebut dalam perjalanan ke majlis berbuka puasa di kediaman Kak Faezah (dah pindah umah baru dowh). Kereta tersebut (plat nombor -- betul ke idak ni?-- FARRA) mengalami cedera parah setelah di tanduk rusa. Kaca-kaca bersepai di tepian jalan bak pasir-pasir putih di pantai yang dipukul ombak berderai (acheewah!! Pinjam sket Din Beramboi). Rusa tersebut tidak mengalami kecederaan melainkan terpempan seketika di tepi jalan, kemudian meneruskan larian marathon pulang ke rumah.

Setelah menemuramah mangsa-mangsa terlibat iaitu Afzan, Teh, Keju, Awang dan Farah (bukan nama-nama sebenar), polis telah mengenal pasti bahawa yang bersalah adalah pihak rusa and bukan manusia-manusia yang berada di dalam kereta berkenaan. Menurut Afzan "Betul Farah, bukan salah ngko, ruse tu yang lari langgar kete ko". Menurut Farah "Hampeh punye ruse. Rosak kete aku". Menurut Awang "Nasik aku tumpah on the way balik".

Lampu depan FARRA (kereta ye bukan orang) pecah kedua-duanya. Atap kereta juga mengalami kecederaan iaitu kemek sedikit ye. Kereta idaman hati sekarang sudah rupa macam nak mati. Apa yang mampu diutarakan sekarang ialah .... "Alhamdulillah. Nasib baik saya tak drive laju sgt tok. Kalau tak, dah lagi laju langgar kijang... eh bukan kijang lah Wann.. ruse. Haa.. kalau lagi laju langgar ruse, lagi teruk kemek kete, nasib baik airbag tak kluar kalau tak dah Sodaqallah je lah kete tu" ucap Farah sambil berlinangan air mata mengingatkan nasib yang terpaksa mengeluarkan lebih kurang 200 dollar untuk membaiki lampu depan kereta.

Berhati-hati di jalan raya kepada mereka yang pulang ke kampung ber Hari Raya.

Assalamu'alaikum.....

Selamat Berpuasa :) !!!! May Ramadhan brings us many many many blessings, cherished memories and a chance to redeem ourselves and come out better people. Honestly, me head (and tummy) has not registered that it's the fasting month. Hopefully this year I'll be able to do better than I did before this.

Yesterday was interesting in a bad way. Today was interesting in a bad way. I am so drained. My chest feels like someone's poking it with a hot pin and then squeezing my heart really, really hard. Sleep didn't come easy, my head isn't in the whole academic game, and all I wanna do is curl in my bed and go to sleep. Seriously.

Malas nak komplen pasal pape, Ramadhan is starting and I should be happy :) . And in a lot of respects, I am. I just... wish some other things would fall into place too :) .

Assalamu'alaikum....

So sorry peeps, lame dah tak update, nyahaha. Been very, very busy. Grad classes are killing me, and with the drama that has been surrounding my work place lately... well let's just say even if you are.. ermm.. mentally challeneged, if you can drive a car or operate heavy machinery, then I can still whoop your ass whenever you start acting like a spoiled, sick little jerk. All the things that are happening around me is enough to give a girl migraines.

Anyway, what prompted me to write today, aside from the fact that I'm stuck at the Baits office a little while longer since it's raining outside, is the fact that last night, I had a really weird dream. It was a bad dream... at least in my opinion. Only one other person aside from Deera (seb baik ko mesej aku, pompuan, thankee thankee :) ) knows about it, nyahaha. Suffice to say, I accidentally fell asleep without washing me feet, dreamt, woke up crying, realized I woke up BEFORE my alarms clock started buzzing and then went to the bathroom to smayang Subuh. After that, I went on a quest to MAKE SURE that everything is the way it's suppposed to be and not warped like the way it was in my dream. So I started poking my nose around places that I really have no business in just to make sure that everything's okay. All of that happened before 10am.... pretty eventful morning.

Ooohh, for the record (not that he's ever gonna read this anyway 'cause he's not the type, nyahaha)... I DO know the girl. After much thinking I realized who it was (well it sorta went like that, LoL, at least Deera knows the full version), and how silly would I sound if I say that I'm more than just a teeny bit jealous..?

Anyway, the morning started out weirdly enough, and the sucky weather prompted everyone to lose their room keys, which means that I spent half of my morning at work making temporary room keys for probably half of the residents at Baits 1. C'mon people, I know you're freshmen but keys don't melt just because it's raining outside. Weather seriously sucked, I was glad to get back home.

Tonight was the premier of Desperate Housewives, Season 2. Woo hoo!! I've been waiting for it for so long... Nik came over for DDR a little bit earlier and promptly left when the show came on TV (there's no accounting for taste... seriously). After the show was over (Bree in a fight with her mother-in-law!! Rex is finally buried!! Susan and Mike are not moving in together... again!! Carlos wants a paternity test!!), Nik, Wann, Nicholas and I went out for dinner at Dinersty 'cause we were freakin' hungry. There, I realized that sometimes, even the most innocent things can sound freakin' dirty when the right people are involved.

So yeah, here I am attempting to study (sorta) and do a paper and remember that tomorrow's Career Fair... oh man, going through the motions of getting an interview is so gonna kill me... me under pressure is not a pretty sight at all. This is the one time where my dry humor and affable smile (cheewah!!) gets me absolutely nowhere... engineers pretty much suck :( .

I gotta go now.. homewroks' -a-calling ... man oh man :( . Till later peeps! Seriously, like much later 'cause this week is gonna be hell. Miss you all muakkss :-* !!

Wassalam

Assalamu'alaikum....

Hmmm.... orientation's done.... met a lot of new people, which is cool :). My student account is finally settled (sorta), I've registered for classes, met with some of my future professors, and things are really beginning to shape up. I have a new job lined up for the semester at Baits, but I'm really going to miss working at Pierpont. Today was my last day, boo hoo.... (seriously, this is sad, I'm not being sarcastic). Merry, Michael and Angela gave me this really, really sweet and wonderful card as a going away present, which I really, really adore :). I'm really going to miss them a lot. It sucks that my position during the fall is going to be a work-study position, or else I would have applied for it in a heartbeat. It's a really great office, I've had a really great experience, no matter how emotional it was, LoL.

So Panda Express is finally open in Pierpont (Panda sells Chinese food.. slightly bland and overpriced for my taste, but hey, it's actually a pretty decent eating place compared to everything else Pierpont has to offer... sorry catering people :)~ ). Noticed quite a few of my friends are working there, LoL. I guess the outfit isn't that bad, even though I split my sides the other day laughing at Salah and Din for their green and yellow Panda t-shirts, respectively. But hey, there are gonna be way richer than I will ever be.

It's gonna be weird going to school as a grad student. The moment that the SI faculty said "Welcome to SI, master's students", my heart skipped a beat. Omigod omigod omigod... I'm doing my master's.... and I'm still in Michigan!! Holy crap! Now that the novelty of it all is wearing off, I have to say... I miss home a lot. I miss my little kiddies and my mom and my dad and my brothers and my sis-in-law and my cuzzy...... I miss the shopping, the food, the ability to walk around in just jeans, flip-flops and a thin cotton top without having to worry if the temperature is going to drop sub zero.... Given a choice, yeah, I'd pick home, but you gotta do what you gotta do. I wanna do my master's now, 'cause I might not get the chance for it later.

This is my second night spending in my room by my lonesome, watching a few DVDs and basically devouring everything in sight. I'm just in my down time, relaxing a bit before all the craziness of school starts. I'm trying to fit dance somewhere in my schedule, which is gonna be tricky because I wanna do well in school and I know there's no room for much dilly-dallying. We'll see how things go, I still might be able to do some of dance. No more ballet though, I think my body never really forgave me for trying to force it to do some really funky shit. No kidding.

I'm feeling strangely relaxed and at peace... and all without the help of weed. I'm a 23-year-old woman living in Michigan, the capital of Hash Bash... and I've never had weed. Yes, I am a dork. So far I haven't had the guts to experiment with pretty much anything. Oh weed, why art thou delude me? (or something like that)

I was watching TV when I realized that I was actually missing someone really badly. Wherever you are, you're always in my thoughts hon :) .

Wassalam....

Assalamu'alaikum.......

I miss Sharron Wenzel. She's this really nice lady who works in the North Campus International Center who has been nothing but kind to me. I adore her to bits. Sharron had her operation on Monday and she's right now recuperating until mid-September. I miss her a lot, it's not the same walking past the IC and not seeing her at her desk. You'll always be in my prayers, Sharron.

Anyway, school hasn't started yet and my schedule is already getting crazy, LoL. I have mandatory orientation next Wednesday and Thursday, but I also work in Pierpont both days. To top it off, Baits move-in is on Monday and Wednesday, which means I have to show up at my new job at Baits, which is gonna be tricky 'cause I'll be at Pierpont during the move-in hours. Nyahaha... what to do, what to do. So I hafta sit down and really think about how I'm gonna maneuver around schedules that seem to be un-maneuverable.

I guess my plan of going somewhere else at the beginning of September is gonna have to be put on hold, since I don't even have classes lined up yet. I'm excited about starting school. It should be exciting. I figured, I have my whole life to go into the work force, but I only have this chance to go back to school on a near-clear conscience and extremely reduced tuition fee, Lol. Better make the best of my chance.

Yesterday Wann, Nick, Azwan, Fer and Nik came over to my house for a few round of DDR. So glad Kristen (girl who lives underneath my apartment) isn't home yet, 'cause we were really abusing my floor and coincidentally, her roof. Earlier that evening Wann, Nick, Nik and I went to Buffalo Wild Wings for dinner. Of course we had the wings at (somewhat) greatly reduced prices, LoL. That's the only reason why I would show up there on Tuesdays. I'm getting into the habit of asking Nik to buy stuff for me, not 'cause I really need them but just to see the "is-she-kidding-me-I'm-broke-so-hell-no" expression on his face. Nyahaha. Klakar dowh. Dah masuk scholar nanti belanje noh..... Tuptim ke.. Red Lobster. LoL.

Today is kinda hectic at work. Can't wait to go home and get some shut eye. I almost missed work this morning. Thank goodness I got here on time (somewhat) ... or at all. It's a little hard when you wanna have it all: work, social life, school, your sanity ..... Especially when in the summer you're supposed to be enjoying things. But it'll be worth it. I'll have spending money for my car and cell phone (maybe even a little bowling), at least I get to see my friends more than I have all year, and going to school means that further along the road, my paycheck is gonna get bigger LoL.

I do want it all. And I'm determined to have it all. Even if it means less sleep more coffee.

Assalamu'alaikum.........

Nyahahaha.... I'M BACK BITCHES!!!!!!! Hahaha... just kidding. But I'm back to updating my blogger (sorta) regularly right now. Nyahahah. And again. Nyahahahaha. Did you guys missed me? Betcha you did, LoL. And here I am back again to dish out my crazy thoughts and rantings.

Thank you thank you thank you to Fer for helping me with the blogger bug. Thankee thankee thankee :) . Yay!

Some things have been going kinda well (yay!) and some haven't (bummer ...). I'm excited that I'm still here to continue grad school (yay!) but Rackham still hasn't admitted me into the school yet (bummer...). Which means I'm not officially a student yet (bummer....) but a lot of people are working with me so that I CAN start school in the fall (yay!). I'm excited. Grad school should be interesting, to say the least.

I wish I can relay EVERYTHING that has happened, but there's just too much stuff goin' on. Lol. My days are pretty predictable these couple of weeks. Get up, go to work, come back from work, lunch, DDR (or gym, or just walk around on Central), lepaks, then it was off to Fer's and Azwan's for singing or poker.

I can actually play poker now. Yay! I told my mom. She laughed but she told me don't start gambling, it always starts out small and then yada yada yada yada... I pretty much tuned her out after she said "don't". I told her I've been away from her for 5 years in high school, and another 4 years halfway across the world from KL, and yet I'm still pretty much the same girl that she raised before I came to the US. I don't drink, I'm not a ho, I'm not doing drugs, I've never even SEEN weed. I told her that unless my Plans From Above says differently, I am not planning any major changes in my personality anytime soon :) . She couldn't argue with that logis, LoL. I love my mom :) .

Oh, and while we're still on the subject of ho's........ I'm just gonna put this on the table and hopefully not offend anyone even though I was pretty offended myself. I'm really proud of my sorority. I learned a lot. I had study partners because of my sorority and I had friends from all around the country who are very dear to me. Most of all, I had sisters. These are the people that I care about. So DO NOT use the word "sorority bimbos" around me. Ever. And I mean this in the most serious way possible. If you're not a girl, you don't even have the right to even UTTER the word "bimbo" in my presence. Deragatory words can only be used playfully if the trust factor is there between all parties involved. Even then, we shouldn't take it lightly 'cause it can hurt. So please, please PLEASE don't diss sororities around me, especially since you know I was in one. Not all of us fit the stereotype.

Phi Rho love :) .

Okay, I gotta get back to work. Thank you again Fer for fixing my layout for me, you're the best :)!

Wassalam....

Assalamu'alaikum.....

A lot of things has happened over the weekend, not to me personally but just in general. Last night the Detroit Pistons lost to the San Antonio Spurs 95-96 (if I remember correctly, somebody should check the papers for me). Dennis and I didn't watch it 'cause we wanted to catch the Spiderman 2 showing at Top of The Park, but Dennis kept tabs on the score through his cell phone, and we were rooting all the way, even when the game went into overtime. It actually works pretty well for me 'cause I barely watch whenever the game's on anyway, I just like knowing who wins, heheh. As you can tell, I'm not the best fan in the world. But I will kick your butt if you ever diss our Pistons.

On another note, Formula One weekend in Indy didn't go so well. I sympathize to those of you who did go and paid for tickets just to watch 6 cars compete. It sucks to go there all the way and pay for all that money and to be dissapointed that way. For those of you who are going "wha..?" while reading this, 14 cars pulled out of the F1 race in Indianapolis because they were using Michelin tires that couldn't handle one of the turns that the cars were supposed to take. The remaining six cars all used Bridgestone tires... which included Ferraris driven by Michael Schumacher (who apparently scored his first win of the season in Indy) and Rubens Barrichello.

So now the upper echelon of the F1 organizations are debating if tickets should be refunded to fans. To be honest, it probably doesn't matter, 'cause everything's ruined anyway. People dished out a lot of money to buy plane tickets or rent cars just to watch their favorite teams compete. Refunding tickets would just be like trying to put an itty bitty band-aid on a big gashing wound. I'm sure a lot of the fans are debating whether or not they would wanna come again next season after this fiasco.

Which bings me to MY own dissapointment..... the comment made by Formula One head Bernie Ecclestone about Danica Patrick, a female race-car driver who's making waves by (finally) shaking-up the male-dominated world of racing. Reading what Ecclestone said about Danica would make just about any female blood boil. The article below is taken from FOXSports.com:-

Danica Patrick has surged onto the open-wheel racing world, but that might not be sitting well with the old-school boss of Formula One racing.

Formula One is getting its most high-profile United States presence with the U.S. Grand Prix at Indianapolis Motor Speedway this weekend, but Formula One chief Bernie Ecclestone doesn't seem to be too crazy about Patrick joining her male competitors on the track, despite her recent Indy 500 success.

"She did a good job, didn't she? Super. Didn't think she'd be able to make it like that," Ecclestone told a gathering of reporters about Patrick's Indy 500 finish.

"You know, I've got one of these wonderful ideas that women should be all dressed in white like all the other domestic appliances," Ecclestone added.

Ecclestone has controlled Formula One for 25 years, amassing a fortune estimated at $3.7 billion. He has a holding company which operates some of F1's commercial ventures, ranging from television rights to sponsorships.

But nine of the F1's 10 teams are in dispute with Eccletone and others over the running of the sport and have threatened to start their own series in 2008. Only Ferrari has signed to stay with Ecclestone after the 2007 season.

Domestic appliances...... DOMESTIC APPLIANCES??? What the fuck?? Liking women to "domestic appliances" is so wrong in so many ways. Not only are you saying that women should stay at home where we "belong", but you're liking us to just things that are used when needed, discarded when not. We are not even human to you!! How do you even sleep at night? How can you even walk on this earth with such an over-inflated ego? And how can people tolerate this male chauvinist pig who should be condemned to life without his penis? Bernie Ecclestone, go eat shit and die, you bastard, I hope one day Danica Patrick would kick your ass till you beg for mercy, and I hope your lil' F1 empire crumbles before your very eyes. Judging from last weekend's fiasco... I might not have to wait too long.

Assalamu'alaikum....

Yesterday Angela took me to Detroit after letting me shop at 12 Oaks for about 2 hours. As I got out of the car, sh told "Don't you go buying anything now, get some nice lunch". My response... "Are you kidding?". I haven't had a shopping mall all to myself for quite a few months now. Since I only 2 hours, I basically had to do sme power shopping, the same technique I use whenever I'm in a new mall: just walk around and do a on-over, take mental notes of which shops you might want to come back to, put a fast upbeat song on your CD (or iPod), and start shopping. The one-over is extremely important, basically cuts your shopping time in half 'cause if you know you can't afford Ann Taylor and J Crew dresses, and they are at one end of the mall next to Lord and Taylor, then stay the heck away from that part of the mall. I ended up with quite a few bargain: a couple of tops from the buy-1-get-1-free rack in Weat Seal; discounted cami, t-shirt and cardigan from Express (further discounted 15% because I opened a new account which I immediately payed off); and some earring from Claires (buy-2-get-1-free). LoL. The one thing that I wish I could've bought was this wide armed ringed knit top from Bebe that is just so New York summer fabulous.... unfortunately it costs 59 bucks sans taxes and it was also not on sale. Damn . That top was cute, and it so goes with everything 'cause I can wear a cami under it when I wanna be more sexy, and I can wear a fitted long-tee under it if I wanna be more demure. I also gotten myself some TCBY ice-cream, which I promptly threw away after finishing less than a quarter of it. Just couldn't down it all.

Afterward, we headed to Detroit to do some sight-seeing. It was pretty awesome, considering that before this, my only views of Detroit came from either a plane window or a Greyhound bus window. It was really, really a city, where there are a lot of tall buildings and everyone drives like a maniac (truly a motor city). We went down Woodward, which separates the east and the west part of Detroit, and we went down Jefferson where all the kids were hanging out ( I told Angela, everyone seems to wear things that are either too baggy or too small). We saw the Comerica Stadium where they had a baseball game going on and we could see all of the people sitting on the bleachers. We saw a lot of the things that I only saw on TV before: Fox Theatre, Fischer Theatre, Detroit Opera House, Detroit Institute of Arts, Henry Ford Medical Center, Hart Plaza (where they hold a lot of events and concerts), the building where Mayor Kwame Kilpatrick holds office, the football stadium, Greektown Casino, MGM Grand, a church next to MGM Grand so that all the gamblers can pray for their sins after losing all their money at the MGM Grand (heheheh)..... my fingers are numb from typing too fast. Let's just say we say a lot of buildings. Hang on.

Okay.. moving on. There were also this big giant statue of a guy, who is now wearing a Pistons jersey. Go Pistons! In fact, there are quite a few artwork on display in the city (I myself can't really create art, but I just love looking at them). My favorite would be the itty-bitty cars that they have on display in random parts of the city. Angela grew up in Detroit, so I got a nice history lesson too along the way. It's pretty cool, I didn't realize that Detroit was quite that old. I was pretty impressed. They also had a lot of construction going on to get ready for next year's Superbowl. Every corner we turned, there was some sort of a building coming up. Ergo, traffic was pretty bad, especially down Jefferson. Kids were even coming out of their cars and dancing in the street 'cause of the traffic. It just tickles me silly looking at all of these young girls walking down in packs, looking like they think they "all that", heheh. I mean, I do it whenever I'm alone just because of self-preservation, people are more likely to bother you if you look scared and you're female, but I never feel a need for that when I'm with friends, and I certainly don't do it with my gut hanging out and half of my ass trying to burst out of a lycra skirt begging to be freed. Angela's not loving the young ones' outfit either.

Afterwards we went over to Angela's mom, Bernice's house to say hi and take in a pitt stop, before going over to Eric's place (he's Angela's fiancee) to also say hi. Then it was off to Angela's house to feed her 4 kids (they're really cute) and me going home afterwards... with a bucket of KFC and two bags filled with new clothes (harta2 rampasan, hehehe). All in all, it was a good, good day.

And now I hafta bust my ass writing this atrocious dance paper. That's what you get when you spend spring taking ballet and doing grand battements, tendues and plies in class 2 times a week for 1-1/2 hours. Ouchie. Well at least I now have ballet slippers... so cute.

Wassalam....

Assalamu'alaikum.....

I've been having a miserable couple of days lately. Uncertainty about life, in general, is never good. Uncertainty about what the hell am I gonna do if funding doesn't come through is downright killing me. I have a paper to write, a letter to compose, a program to clean up.... and here I am, updating my journal. Figures.

After many unsuccessful attempts to "obtain" songs from Mariah Carey's new album, I finally have all of 'em. Dennis had to walk me through the whole process, but I finally have "Emancipation of Mimi" songs blaring through the house. I do love Mariah's voice. Not the greatest actress, but we can't do everything now can we?

I have a few new favorites right now. While I still love Venus and Serena (such positive role models, it just show you don't have to be butch to be athletic, you don't have to look anorexic to be sexy), I'm also loving Maria Sharapova, winner of Wimbledon 2004 and now, a Canon Powershot girl. She makes people wanna say..... Anna who? It's a good thing that Kournikova has "retired" (right?), or else we might see some serious catfights going on. The resemblance between the two of them is kinda uncanny though, although Maria looks a bit like Brittany Gastineau in some of her photos.... which isn't bad considering that Brittany is a model who has just appreared in Maxim's Hot 100 list for 2005.

Angela's gonna take me to Detroit tomorrow so I can see the "real" Detroit. Can you imagine, after 4 years living in Michigan, I haven't really been to Detroit yet? I mean, I've passed through it to get to the airport, but that was it. However, before we go, she needs to go to a presentation for her vacation, so Angela's gonna drop me off at the mall first and I'll have about an hour to walk around and shop. Yay shopping!! Retail therapy... yummy. I'm gonna buy me a few handbags and shoes and earrings and tops and pants.... LoL. Actually I might just get a pair of new earrings and if here's a payless, then maybe a pair of new shoes.

I'm sleepy, I wish I can go home and just sleep, it has been a long night. A friend asked me about the entry, and apparently my rant managed to make somone slightly "nervous" because that someone thinks he/she fits into that description. Well, it does fit, but it's not you honey. Weird, isn't it, how people can do stupid hurtful things to you no matter what gender they are. I've heard "Guy friends are easier to have" .... yeah right. "Girl friends are way better, they are always there for you".... well not always, apparently, and the dissapointment of realizing that your girl doesn't have your back can be quite overwhelming.

Wassalam..

Assalamu'alaikum....

It's 2.25am, and I still can't sleep. Uh-oh.... I can NOT miss work tomorrow. Anyway, today was pretty packed for me with trying to finalize some documents, kickboxing and of course, DDR. However, after kickboxing today, Ayun and I ditched butts 'n gutts and decided to do some retail therapy instead at Briarwood Mall. I came out with two new spaghettis and one printed top. Awesome :)~ . Anyway, on the way there, Ayun told me something that , if I was a better woman than I am right now, I would go check that "thing" out. As it is, I'm a bitch, so whatcha gonna do about it? I realized that for a person who's only 5 ft 3, I can pack a lot of anger in my frame, heheh, 'cause even after kickboxing (and loads of.. ermm... imagining stuff), I was still itching for.. ermm... payback. Heheh. When the heck did I become so vindictive.

Today was certainly NOT my day. Everything that could go wrong, did. I can't even think about today without feeling tired. Anyway, I've come to the conclusion that spring is NOT my season, 'cause every single big drama in my life happens during the summer. Maybe having too much free time on my hands is not so good for me.

Time to be vague... people, stop reading right now 'cause I'm gonna stop making sense.

Things happen, shit happens, good things happen. For the same event, a lot of people would feel different things, Just because something good happened, doesn't mean everyone will be happy about it. And vice versa, not everyone feels bad when shitty things happen. For example, if shit happens to people that I don't really like, such as a certain academic advisor, I would be jumping up and down for joy. But that's just me.

I am extremely stubborn. Very much so. I make up my own mind about something and until I want to change it, then that's the way it's gonna be. I also don't read other people's blogger unless someone's gettin' married or I REALLY, REALLY have nothing to do. I can love people with all my heart and I can also hate with every fibre in my being. I can also feel things in between those two extremes. I can be an angel and I can be a bitch. I can be everything in your dreams and I can also be your living nightmare. I can be your best friend one moment and completely turn on you the next. I can be your lover today and your enemy tomorrow. Whatever part I play in your life, dear reader, is completely up to you and the things you do for me and especially the things you do to me.

I like it when things are out in the open. I like to know that I can trust my friends. I like to be able to be comfortable in my own skin and not feel like the pair of jeans in your closet that you only wear when you have absolutely NOTHING else to wear. I like being needed, but I don't like being used. I especially don't like feeling I'm the dirt beneath some else's shoes. I hate knowing that there are so many people in my life that fits into "that" description, in one way or another. I hate knowing there are so many people NOT in my life who also fit into "that" description. Whatever "that" is, dear reader, is something that I cannot be bothered to explain.

I need things to be settled quickly. I hate procrastinating when it comes to things that really matter to me. I hate that two years ago, you hurt me, and now you're back and you expect things to be okay. Too bad, honey, because you're two years too late. You sat on your ass and did NOTHING, you deserve nothing from me, and especially not the best of me. Just because I tolerated your shit before doesn't mean I feel the same way now. Especially not with the other things that are happening in my life. Eat shit and go die, biatch, I might not hold a grudge for the smaller things but there was nothing small about what you did.

There.