MARI MAKAN-MAKAN
Mase nie sume orang tgh tergezut sebab memasing tgh melantak, tetibe hantu mane ntah ambek gambar. Kat belah kanan tuh Ayun, either die tgh buat muke high or die tgh cakap "Weh!". Cube teke sape yang paling tgh enjoy food die.

Assalamu'alaikum.....

No quotable quote for today, just a new layout :), and a new song. Actually it's an old one by Brad Kane and Lea Salonga. People can probably tell I haven't downloaded anything good since my computer got reformatted. Actually, I do have some new songs, but I want something Extremely Mellow for today... or this week, or this month, depending on the next time I updated my blog, heheh. But anyway, need to get ready for class! Ciao!

Wassalam...

Assalamu'alaikum and hello :) ....

QUOTABLE QUOTE FOR THE DAY: ".... I'm going to put you in my to do list." ---> Jackass

Okay, so there's two parts to this entry. First one is my oh-so-eventful Friday night, and second is the Relay for Life event held at Palmer Filed yesterday.

FRIDAY NIGHT

Yeah, so me being an idiot who doesn't have time to study during the weekend because of the Relay, decided to blow my Friday night too by trying to find something else to do (e.g parties, dances, movies ...) and ended up dragging Elly with me. I had a couple of invites to stuff, and there was the Spring Gala that I was interested to go, so there was plenty of things to do (kinda, because they're all almost the same thing).

The Spring Gala was a bust because no one was there and we decided not to go . There was barely enough people to fill a table, let alone a ballroom. I attribute that to extremely poor publicity because other than the email, there was no flyers or posters or anything else that might attract normal engineers to it ( normal = The Dude isn't the only place outside his room that you can see him at ).

But we managed to find something to do ...... then headed off to Pinball Pete's for about a half hour of shooting people's heads off and getting chopped by crazy zombies.

RELAY FOR LIFE (BARU HABES SEMALAM)

Yeah, okay, so yesterday I went to my sorority retreat, which is the Relay For Life, held at Palmer Field. I arrived there with Tina and Carly at 2 pm, and we're supposed to stay there until 10 pm, because that's the mandatory shift. So the day started out all sunny and nice, there were a few girls sunning, and people were walking and jogging around the track and talking and basically having fun. I walked for 6 laps, then I saw the pizza at our place and swerved straight into it for lunch, hehehe. After that, it was a game of Euchre for me and a few girls, and some of the others played Red Rover (macam main galah panjang sikit-sikit). After that, some of us formed two teams to play soccer. Haha.. it was hillarious, I kept getting hit by the ball, and it kept coming straight at me, but my team lost by 1 anyway. It was great fun, though I was wheezing by the end of it because I haven't exercised in ages, and it was getting reaaaaaaalllllyyy cold. So by 5 o'clock it was getting windy, then sunny, then windy and stayed that way. At around 7 we built a tent, and by 7.30 it was pouring for the rest of the night.

After that I was downright miserable because of the cold (I had only my green hoodie, a pair of t-shirts and a track bottom) and it was beginning to SNOW! The weather was horrible, but we made the best of it by playing Never Have I Ever.... then say something you've never done. I always win, of course, because I never damn well did anything. The girls decided to chet by saying "Never have I ever lived in Malaysia" so I have to say I've done that. But it was good fun while it lasted, even if it was damn cold.

so 10 pm came, and I so wasn't looking forward to my shift at 2 am till 6 am, so I decided to go back home, take a bath, and then come back again. I took my bath, had dinner with Nik (Dinersty, as always), then bundled up for my shift.... only to find out that the rest of the Relay was cancelled due to "unsafe weather". Well, it was unsafe, people can get pneumonia last night. So I collapsed back into bed and slept until now.

I just wanna say thanks again to Adlee, Dayang, Kak Mel, Azwan , Nik and also my parents for donating money towards the relay. Your donation is so greatly appreciated :), waking up this morning I felt great about having done something good for our fight against cancer, even if I am currently having a slight fever and my legs are sore from walking and soccer.

Okay, so I have to go study now, thanks for reading if you are, and I rpomise to get that damn song off my site :) . Ciao!

Wassalam....

QUOTABLE QUOTE FOR THE DAY: "Life does not suck.... you do." --> Me

YESTERDAY'S QUOTABLE QUOTE WAS: "You're about as hot as yesterday's coffee.... in the fridge." --> Kate

TOMORROW'S QUOTABLE QUOTE (since I won't have time too put it in): "Of course you don't have to be Wonder Woman, honey... just have her boobs" --> Mr. Asswipe to someone

I'm doing Relay For Life tomorrow! Can't wait! It should be excellent fun... and a lot of work. But still, it's for a good cause, so I'm happy :) . The downside of it, I only have 10 bucks in donations right now from Adlee (time kacih Adlee, jasamu dikenang. ) , and tambah dengan my own donation... that doesn't leave me with much. I'm hoping to earn at least 100 bucks, guess I have to lower the goal to 50 bucks then :( . But anyway, if you STILL want to donate (there's still time!), please click here to donate to Relay For Life!!

Okay, I'm working right now, and I have to get on to it (did I say I love my job?) so I'll pen in later, okay? Hopefully with news from the Relay!

Wassalam....

Assalamu'alaikum....

Hey peeps! Please click here to donate to Relay For Life!! . Any sort of donation is completely appreciated, of course.

Yeah, I'm doing some community service before the semester is over. The event is next week, by the way, so anybody wanting to make a contribution, please do :) . Any money given, even a dollar, is truly appreciated. Relay For Life is under the American Cancer Society, and all contributions go towards finding a cure for the disease and help fight cancer worldwide.

Funny, I started out doing this because of a sorority requirement, and suddenly it became very personal to me. My grampa on my mom's side died of stomach cancer, and my grandma (arwah's wife) was diagnosed with breast cancer not too long ago. Even though the growth was completely removed, she still has to do regular check-ups, just in case. I mean, I know we had some history in my family, but I didn't know about all this until me and my mom stumbled upon the subject when we were talking. Suddenly I'm glad I'm doing the relay.....

Okay, I have to get on studying now, but remember people, donate!! Till later, ciao!

Wassalam.....

Assalamu'alaikum

Ngahaha... hari tuh tgh buat projek Tech Com 281, kene carik list of clubs yang wujud kat Umich nie.... Tetibe, jumpe lah this one:
Sketsa! (Malaysian Students' Association)

Nie sure zaman batu punye list, dah berape tahun dah name kitorang UMIMSA. Dah lah name Sketsa tuh ade tande seru kat hujung die. Hok aloh. Nasib baik skang dah tukar name. Kalau tak, malu jek.

Anyway, tadi konon-konon buat homework ngan Ijat, pastu ade lah graph nie, pastu dekat graph tuh ade due nodes yang memasing bernama Burglary ngan Earthquake. Pastu kitorang pun tgh nak mereason graph tuh (sebab sume bende tak make sense)....

Aku : Eh, cube compare graph nie. Apsal kat sini ade arrow from Earthquake to Burglary?
Ijat : Ooo sebab kalau ade earthquake org lagi nak keluar merompak...
Aku : (*snort!*, tgh tahan gelak) Ape pulak, kalau earthquake lah orang lagi tanak keluar sebab takut
Ijat : Tak lah, time earthquake, tgh huru-hare, so org tak pay attention ko merompak. Tapi nie aku pandai-pandai je, jgn ikut cakap aku.

Hahahahahahah.... power punye reasoning. Lepas tuh conversation berenti jap sebab aku takleh nak berenti gelak, sambil tuh Ijat cakap "siot ko!". Hahaha... sayang ko Ijat, jangan mare, kalau takde ko bosan sume orang, termasuklah aku :). Lepas habes gelakkan Ijat, die kene gie kelas, so tinggal sengsorang.... and datanglah pembalasan..... sebab gelakkan orang, tadi tgh2 seronok bace buku, someone gie terkejutkan from belakang. Ter melatah "Oh f*** you!" . Dang.. pusing tgk my cutie classmate from previous semester, Mr. Blondie yang suke panggil aku "shrimp, how ya doin'?". Mase tuh muke dah merah, die pun terkejut kejap (ye lah, before this depan die baik je), ngaha, pastu cakap lah sori bebanyak, tercakap sebab terkejut. Lagi embarrassing... hari nie konon nak jadi nerd gile, nak duduk kat MU lame2, so pakai baju yang sememeh lagi comfy..... tshirt lengan panjang corak biru ngan sluar track matching biru yang ade koyak kecik kat lutut sebab jatuh main b-ball. Suffice to say, macam org baru bangun tidoq. Dang.... nasib baik tgh duduk, so die tak nampak koyak nye. But still.... malu jugaaaa.....

Okkeh, sekarang satu hapak pun tak masuk, and exam and hw sume due besok. Minggu yang sangat taik. Worse, nak kene decide if I really nak depledge from the sorority... sebab duit satu, sebab mase satu, but we'll see, sebab sayang lah pulak. Anyway, until exam habes, babai!

Wassalam....

Assalamu'alaikum...
Okay, so I know I suck at updating regularly nowadays, but I'm seriously busy this week. So further updates will have to wait until my program is finished. Thank you so much to Ijat and Kirah sebab kalau takde diorang, alamat tak pass lah kelas EECS 370 nie. My subjects suck ass this semester, and I honestly wish that I don't give a flying fuck what I get, but since I do, hence the no-sleep-nights. I even missed a sorority meeting. Oopsy. We'll have to rectify a lot of stuff before the term is over.

Anywa, new song by Tyra Banks. Love it so much, especially since I'm so hooked on America's Next Top Model. The kicked out Sara, so GO SHANDI!! Twigs rule!

Okay, back to programming...

Wassalam....

Assalamu'alaikum...
Great, I have mild bronchitis. Thank goodness I went to the UHS before it got any worse. But anyway, I was feeling fine one minute, and then had this big headache the next, plus my throat itched and my nose was running like Watson Nyambek chased by a rabid dog. Suffice to say, I knw right away it wasn't normal flu (my normal flu syndroms are very, very mild... what can I say? I eat a lot of fruit and veggies). Went to the UHS, was told "good thing you came in before it got any worse", and was prescribed a couple of antibiotics, and to stay away from people for a day and see if symptoms got any worse or not. I stayed away for only half a day because I had a group meeting to go to, but I'm not letting anyone share any drinks with me. Anyway, aside from looking Rudolph the nosed reindeer, I'm feeling okay.

Still haven't gotten my Wario yet, but I'm enjoying Donkey Kong tremendously, though I felt like an idiot once Elly showed me how to get out of the darn cabin. And apparently, overgrown apes can play DDR too.

Anyway, got the nicest e-card today from the most unexpected person. Thank you :) . Heheh... haven't decided if I'm going back home this summer or not, but I'm definitely keeping this person in mind if I do.

Yesterday was my EECS 492 exam. It killed me so bad, I was drained afterwards. Right before that, I received a phone call from the person me and arwah Teh used to call "mami" , Auntie Maharom. It was kinda surprising, considering I don't hold any ranks in UMIMSA. We talked about stuff (budak2 Umich yang tak hantar transcript lagi, silelah hantar, aku dah hantar dah, heheh) like academics and general stuff. She does remind me a lot of my own mom. Unfortunately, couldn't talk for long because I had that damn exam.

My phone has been ringing off the hook today, with calls for meetings and stuff. It's been insane. Anyway, homework galore tonite, so tata!

-Wassalam-

Assalamu'alaikum....







SNAPSHOTS FROM WARIO WARE

Baru place order for Wario Ware semalam... nyam nyam, can't wait. Skarang tgh main Donkey Kong Country, akhirnye lepas jugak from that damn pokok sebab Elly tunjuk button mane nak tekan kalau nak lompat jauh2. Keskeskes... Wario Ware nie pulak, hook mase kat Illinois, main Gameboy Sheila, tetibe rase best lah pulak, addictive gile. So skang tgh tunggu die dtg, yea yea. Skang tgh bengong dengan Donkey Kong sebab die stuck kat Cranky's Cabin and tanak kluar-kluar, ikut Elly nak kene main je sampai die kluar. Tapi geram lah jugak sebab alih-alih kene tengok muke monyet tue tuh je cakap mende2 yang ntah hape-hape. Hai.. Gameboy nie je lah yang termampu nak main, nak beli console macam Gamecube ke, PS2 ke, tarak duit.

Tadi mak call from ofis die, pakai handphone. Mentang-mentang ade international roaming, heheh. Mak bising "Sim kad awak tuh ade international roaming jugak, Farah je tanak bawak." Habes tuh mane nak carik handphone, mahal gile. Mak kate nak hantar hp from Mesia, org kate takyah sebab lagi murah nak call pakai phonecard, malas nak layan songeh handphone (for now). Pastu mak cakap "Mak bayar $1,180 kat William suruh buat baju tige pasang. Tuh upah jahit je tu, tak masuk kain. Kain sume free". Mak cakap bapak bising sebab mahal, tapi bapak bising kejap je sebab die tak penah pun nak bising lame2. So pegi lah tanye mak, camane boleh mahal sangat. Mak cakap sebab baju sume ade sulam (plus org agak lah kan, sebab William tuh mmg cekik darah pun). Sulam cantik, sambung mak. Pulak dah. So org pun tanye lah, baju mahal-mahal mak nak pakai bile? Pegi ofis ke? Pastu nie lah part best: " Ape pulak baju mak, tige-tige baju Farah punye". Lagi sekali.... pulak dah. Mak datuk, baju sepasang dekat nak empat ratus ringgit upah, jahit je, nasib baik kain orang kasi buat bedey present and saje gatal-gatal nak kasi present. Patut lah bulan nie, kalau charge pape kat credit card bapak, die tak tanye pape, rerupenye bapak tgh sibuk ngan mak punye charges. Hahaha.. patutlah rumah kitorang cipo'et je, nasib baik rumah low maintenance, duit sume pegi kat isi-isi dalam. Hari tuh beli TV baru sebab budak kecik umur due tahun kat rumah tuh nak tgk Roda Impian 24/7. So bapak beli TV baru for Jajiq. TV flat-screen 36 (ke 32) inches..... for budak umur 2 tahun. Family best, tapi duit every month kluar macam air. Nasib baik bapak tak kisah, hot temper die pun belum lagi die nak bising pasal duit, sume jalan aje.

Okkeh, sambung study and buat homework. Sape yang bace nie, time kacih kerane sudi membace :).

Wassalam...

Assalamu'alaikum...

Hahah... didn't go to the OPT workshop. They're having one next week over at Pierpont, so I'm gonna go to that one so I don't have to wait for the bus for 30 freakin' minutes. Spent the morning grocery shopping, filling out credit card forms, reading and enjoying my Gameboy. I'm stuck on this one part of Donkey Kong Country, somehow I just can't seem to swing far enough to get to the next tree.

I can't wait till next weekend, I'll finally be able to call home and talk to Nenek. I hope all the crap that happened this week isn't gonna happen next week. I mean, there was a bunch of things that I was so looking forward to doing that blew up in my face. If I went, I dissapointed a whole bunch of people. If I didn't go, I would have dissapointed someone who had been so helpful to me, plus we had been looking forward to our little trip for a week. So I chose, thinking that I probably can still amke it back in time. All I wanted was to unwind, and I ended up feeling miserable instead. It was such a mess, I woke up today with puffy eyes and and a monstrous headache. Needless to say, CCRB went to hell, and good thing the OPT has another workshop coming up.

Maybe I'm not meant to try and be an overacheiver. Maybe I'm not meant to have good grades, have a job, be involves in extra curriculars, be active in a sorority, try to get an internship, apply for grad school and still have a normal social life all at once. Maybe I should do what I always do every other semester: go to school, go home, sit around and hope good things come my way. That didn't work, and now my excellent plan of grabbing life by the balls (because we know Life is a man, anyway) isn't going that great either. So what is a girl to do?

Wassalam....

Assalamu'alaikum...

I had an exceptionally long day today. Work started at 9 in the morning, and to make matters worse, I didn't get much sleep the night before due to excessive worry about programming, exams and how I'm gonna fit everything in my time schedule. Needless to say, I didn't fall asleep until around close to 5 a.m. Work consisted of learning how to use listserve and how to maintain the Pierpont Commons website. I was half asleep through most of the time, thank goodness my boss didn't notice. By the time she talked about Stress Busters and asked us to look for stuff to put in the kit, I was past the point of listening.

So I finished work at 11.30, went straight to ME 240 class (managed to keep myself fresh and alert) , then had lunch (still managed to keep awake AND eat a lot of food) , went to EECS 492 discussion (Thom was really boring) , and then had a meeting with Kristen, during which I could barely keep my eyes open. I went back home, finally managed to get some sleep.... only to be waken at 6.30 to go to Target with Abigail. I dragged my butt out of bed (I've been planning this Target trip since Monday, that was how much I was looking forward to the stuff I wanna get), put some clothes on, plunked my paperboy cap on my head and was ready to go. We went to Target, and that was basically the high point of my day. The TV I wanted was out, but I pestered people and they gave me a "raincheck" (it's a receipt you get so that the next time the item comes in, you can get it for the discounted price) for the TV and the DVD player I wanted. However, what kind of pissed me off was that it took them a half hour to tell me that they were out of the DVD player. I was out of my mind tired by then. Abigail looked around for her stuff (she has a project thing to do for her internship) and I basically looked around for stuff that I can use for work. We're surveying things for the Stress Busters program, and so far it's been going good, but we only have the toys up, none of the academic things up yet.

Basically we left Target when it closes, and Abigail was happy with the stuff she got for work, and I was happy because hope is not lost for my TV (trust me, if I want something, I will employ every given method to make it happen. The sale ends tomorrow, but at least I have my raincheck). And here's the good part: we got lost. Like waaaaay lost. We were circling around roads I have never even seen during my three years here. Needless to say, I was freaking out AND I was sleepy. And Abigail was getting a headache too, though we made stupid, mundane jokes about assholes who shouldn't drive too keep our mind off the fact we had no idea where we were.

Luckily, all went well. We were only an hour lost, but now I know where Maly's is. I got back, got yelled at, and now I'm gonna go to sleep,because tomorrow I have the workshop to go to and the CCRB before that, and Sunday is social for the associates and then chapter at 6 (if you don't understand what it means, it's no big, just ignore) , and I'm writing crap now anyway, so ciao and zzzzzz........

Wassalam......

Assalamu'alaikum....

Warghh!!! School has only started for a few days and already I'm doing major screw-ups. Like flunking my ME 240 exam. And accidentally coming to chapter an hour early (not exactly screw up there, but I'm still pissed). And missing class today because I slept late last night and my alarm clock chose THIS DAY to die on me. Now I have to go on a scavenger hunt for notes, which is a pain in the ass to do. To top it off, I have dance class today, a meeting right after and TONS of homework to do, when all I really wanna do is just go home and sleep. *sigh* . Life as an undergraduate.

And right now, I can't even check my Umich email because the server is down. I mean, wtf?? How can it be down at 4.20 in the afternoon? And I'm nervous because I'm still short of one interview for my sorority membership education.

Ooohhh... here's some nice news :). I'm finally inducted into Phi Sigma Rho. Yay! After induction, I went to the MU for a spot of studying, and Alisa managed to stuck something down induction gift, nguahaha.. Apelah Alisa. Thankfully, it's out now.

Activities this week: Practice for sisters' show, get another interview with an active, learn the Greek alphabets (wha..?), and call home before mom and dad go to Cairo for their fifth honeymoon (I think, or is it more than that? They've been around the globe so much without their "lovely" kids that I can't keep track anymore). Apply for the engineering study abroad program (pleaseeeeee let me get to Grenoble. It'd be so kick ass! )

And after this lame ass excuse of an update, I have to get going to class, so ciao!

Wassalam....

p/s: I love you... (ahaks! who remembers that series? waayyyy long ago )

Assalamu'alaikum....

Top story for tonite will be written in caps lock, thank you very much, so here goes:

1. SAPE AMEK HAIRDRYER AKU, SILE LAH PULANGKAN BALIK, TIME KACIH.... (takde dalam bilik, dah dig in laundry pun tak jumpe)

2. ANYBODY WANNA BUY A RETRO STYLED WOOD PANELLING "FLAT SCREEN (haha) " 21 INCH MAGNAVOX TV FOR UNDER 30 BUCKS CAN MESSAGE/EMAIL/CALL/SMOKE SIGNAL ME AT ANYTIME OF THE DAY (DO NOT CALL WHEN I'M SLEEPING, THOUGH). U PICK UP ONLY, NO DELIVERY SERVICE PROVIDED.

3. GIRLS, SAPE NAK MAKE-UP EXTRA AKU, MEH DATANG AMEK. ADELAH A FEW BAGS.....

Okay, finished with those nonsense.

I can't believe spring break is over. Like seriously, I cannot believe that my life is going to fast forward to hell again. Aaccccckkk!!! Me nervous.Well, at least my sorority stuff are finished, so that's one load off my mind. Now I only have to study for the quiz, but backtrack a bit, to a time when homework was just a distance memory and books were used as a foot stool.....

Illinois was heaven. It consister of days of shopping, nights out bowling and DDR, helping Sheila cook, and of course, Evanescence in concert!!!! Aaaacckkk!!! (drool) the concert was excellent!! So, so cool! Evanescence rocks! They had two opening acts, Atomship and Default. Atomship didn't impress me much, in fact I fell asleep during their number (pretty amazing since everything was blasting through my eardrums, that's how "unimpressed" I was), but Default was excellent. Totally rocks. Love them.

When Evanescence came onstage, everything was electric. I couldn't keep my butt on the seat (partly because the mamat in front of me was tall AND he was standing). I loved it! Seriously, I wish I had floor tickets so that I could squeeze myself closer to the stage.

After the concert, Elly, Ella, Hakam and I went to the dining hall to grab us some food. Met up with maestro of funny videos, incik Omar. I watched the clips he did with his friends (Sheila showed it to me), everything was damn funny. Hehehe.. I was gonna put the link in my website, but I can't remember what the link is... whoops... don't fret, it'll come back to me.

One of my best memories in Illinois is the night Sheila, Tet and I went out. We went to eat at Evo, where I had salted fish and chicken fried rice (nyam nyam) and jasmine milk tea that tasted like I was drinking a glass of talcum powder. the smell was so sweet, it made me gagged. After that, we went bowling. Hahaha.. I didn't do pretty badly, considering that I'm a novice. After that, I played a round of DDR, then it was off to my favorite cafe in the world, Moonstruck. Bliss sgt sgt sgt. The hot chocolate was to die for. Love it. Much love to Tet sebab belanje, and Sheila for being wacko (ngehehe.. kidding laling )

Then there was the shopping trips with Sheila and Eric, and another one with Elly, Bashir and Fifi. Got myself a pretty earring holder, and a beautiful bracelet holder. Oh, and a stripped pink and white shirt which goes well with the assortment of bracelets I bought from Claire's.

Then there was Ann Arbor. There was that day of groceries shopping, tolong Dee masak nasik ayam, then melantak nasik ayam, then the attempt to watch a horror-comedy movie at Ayun's.

And there's today, where I am currently at the library chatting my brains out with my cousin and friends. Perfect waste of library time. I was supposed to meet Heather here for an active's interview, but I guess she didn't get my email. So I printed some stuff, chatted a little (cloud 9 ), basically screwed up my study night. Figures.

Anyway, I have to go now, because the library is closing in 15. Ciao!

Wassalam...

Assalamu'alaikum and hullo :) ....

As I'm writing right now, I'm in Elly's room in Illinois, kicking back after an extremely hectic half semester. I'm just sooo happy right now, especially since I started off Spring Break on kinda the right foot. On Thursday night, I went to Joe's Crabshack for Jennifer's birthday celebration. It was definitely intersting, as I got to see Jen run around the restaurant wearing a coconut bikini, goofy red glasses and a hula... and she was riding a fake horse a la "kuda kepang". And I had crab. Man, the food was good. I had a couple of misses with the food the first two times I went there, but as they say, third time's the charm.

On Friday night, after packing for my Illinois trip, me and the rest of the girls went to Bubble Island for drinks and games. We played three rounds of Taboo, had a blast, then went off to Pinball Pete's, located next door to Bubble Island. Here's where I start losing a whole lotta money. We played this dance floor game thingy that I, for the life of me, can't remember what it's called. Kirah power sial! Then there was the rounds of Daytona, House of The Dead, and other stuff that I can't recall. But anyway, we were kinda flexing our shooting skills for the lazer tag planned the next day. We stayed at the arcade until about 1 a.m, then went back to Alisa's room to continue the festivities. Needless to say, I went to sleep at 5.30 in the morning.....

And woke up at 10.45 a.m. I almost hit the roof. I was supposed to be at the parking lot 15 minutes before that, Cue the opening of windows and yelling "Kirah!! Aku baru bangun!!! Jap Jap!!" (Kirah was my driver) and running around my room putting on clothes and wearing my tudung. By 10.48, I was heading downstairs towards the parking lot, cursing loudly to myself for being such an ass and waking up late. That was the fastest ever I put on clothes on meself. Amazing what being late can do for you.

But anyway, once we got to the whatcha-call-it place, it was so, so much fun. That was the most fun I've had running around with a fake gun in my hands. It was great. BUT... cue the gripe.... if you're not fluent in Malay,or in no mood to hear me gripe, then disregard the next paragraph.

Aku benci, benci, benci when people tell me, in no uncertain terms, what to do. I mean, please lah, orang yang boleh suruh aku buat pape would be mak bapak aku aje and only them. Abang-abang aku pun kene bolayan kalau mengade nak mengarah-arah orang buat ape-ape. I just wanna go there, shoot the crap out of people, and have fun. Susah sgt ke? Susah sgt ke nak bagi aku have fun without breathing down my neck macam tuh? Aku tak mintak pun, langsung tak mintak pun, for you to bagitau what I can and cannot do. And for you to have the gall to datang to me afterwards and make me feel incompetent and pissed off sebab I was off alone and basically leaving the "team" unattended is just crossing the line bro. What the hell?? What the f***in' hell? Piss off lah man, I was this close to just walking away and tak layan kau tau. What the hell??? Geram geram geram geram geram .... First you made me miss my friends, then you make me wish they can haunt you and make you as miserable as you made me. Tolong lah! It was just a game! Bukannye nak bomb Iraq ke White House, and aku bukan pompuan Taliban yang membabi bute nak ikut cakap laki macam tuh. You make me want to claw my eyes so I won't see you, break my arms so I have an excuse to get away from you, chop off my ears so I won't have to hear you, break my legs so I won't have to go anywhere near you. Other than sharing oxygen, that's all I wanna have to do with you. Mess with me, tuh lain cerite. Mess about my friends, and you're dead to me. Never again, man. Nak tau apsal aku tulis kat sini? Because I'll never, ever forgive you for all your crap. Ever. Is it cold? Maybe. But aku dah janji dah lame dulu that I will never again let a guy make me miserable, and aku tanak start now. So piss off , wanker, and go to hell.

*phew*.... okay, that was some steam I just let off. Biarlah orang nak pikir ape, or kalau orang lain tau ke tak sape yang dimaksudkan, but if you think I'm making a big deal out of nothing, the "nothing" larut for 3 semesters. Girl needs to let off steam sometime, right? Muahahaha... I can honestly say right now that the above paragraph is NOT about any undergrads currently attending the University of Michigan. So there.

-Farah-

Assalamu'alaikum...

I was updating my Snapfish and Wal-Mart album (ordered a few prints and stuff), when I saw my pics with arwah Teh and Nanim. Suddenly I was overwhelmed by this strong feeling of sadness. Not a day passes by that I don't think of them, and everytime I do, I miss them more and more. I mean, you can fill your life with so many things, be involve in so many stuff, make it so that not one second in a day is your own anymore..... but at the end of the day, if you're truly honest with yourself, there's just a void inside you that no one can fill. To miss them the way I do is just a pain that stabs me every day. I mean, I can't very well talk to anyone about this, it's been over so long, and in a way, I've moved on with my life. But a part of me is still there, in that moment in time on Nov 9th, 2003.... the first time that I felt that void that has been haunting me ever since.

Is my blog too public for me to write something as private as this? Maybe. But I'm feeling too fucked up and robbed of any sanity that I don't really give a shit who reads this....

Assalamu'alaikum....

See? Juicy stuff always comes up whenever I call home. Apparently my house just adopted a new kitten. She has white fur and blue eyes, and my nephew adores her. Though that's open to interpretation. My nephew adored our last cat and he dragged the poor thing around using his walker and basically bullied Whiskas to death (not literally, of course). And both of my parents are heading of to Cairo next week for 7 days of fun... by themselves. How romantic. mostly it's going to be on a cruise, so I told my mom to go see our doctor and get some sea-sick pills. I'm so jealous. I wanna go too! No wonder we're not moving to a new house. Well, they deserve it, my mom and dad are the very best. Plus we're getting a new car. I can't remember what type, but it's gonna be a Proton because my brother was the one who picked it out (the ever diligent government officer now has an affinity for everything "local" ). Maybe we got a discount, because I can't imagine why he would want a Proton anything in the first place. Me and my second bro are real snobs... heheheh .... if we can get away with it, we always go for the stuff that has no "cap Malaysia" on it. My dream car (for the time being) happens to be a Hyundai Coupe exactly like my cousin's. I used to drool over this red Alfa Romeo when I was in high school, though that one's waaaaaay out of range. I can't remember what my brother was into, but I'm sure it was really expensive, nguahaha...

Next item on the list: apparently my "extended family" (if you can call it that) manages to make up stories about my currently non-existing love life (?). My mom's ex-boyfriend married off his daughter, and invited my mom's sister to the wedding (they're cousins.... which means he's my mom's cousin too... how "fun"). Apparently he found out that I'm friends with his nephew (we're the same age) and he's all excited about it. Cue the eeeeyeeewwww sound I mad into the phone. First of all, we are so not an item, just friends, and we haven't seen each other in three years. Second of all, what is it to him that we're friends? It's not his son. My aunt reported this to my mom (my mom wasn't invited to the wedding... doh... though the guy told my grandma's nurse that he did invite mommy... it's all complicated), and my aunt even said (according to my mom) "tak dapat mak nye, anak die pun boleh". Made me laugh like a hyena into the phone. My mom said "Kalau boleh, cariklah orang lain, Farah" (try and find someone else). So I teased her "Kalau tak jumpe orang lain, camane? Kite tak cantik macam mak.. mak tunggu kat bas stop, ade org ikut sampai ke rumah, Farah tunggu kat bas stop, bas pun tanak berenti" (basically I made a joke about not finding someone). My mom laughed into the phone... but still told me to find someone else. Hahahaha... we'll see, mummy :)... So far she hasn't approved of one single guy I've been with, or the ones I liked either. I so do not want to die an old maid, these hips are made for bearing kids (what other explaination for my humongous butt? hahaha), hehehe... I love babies. I'm picky enough for me, put my whole family in the equation.... potent combination that would result in either me getting the catch of the century.... or none at all. Oh well, que sera sera...

Okay, it's almost 2 a.m, I need to go pray, get my laundry and go to Ijat's room to help with stuff. So I'll catch you guys later. Ta!

Wassalam...

Assalamu'alaikum....

Tiring week, can't believe it's not over yet. Anyway, glad it's Saturday, anyway. We'll be having our Singaporean -Malaysian Cultural Show THIS Friday at 7 pm. Which means I'll have to leave work a little bit early. Hopefully Katherine won't mind. Right now I'm a little bit in over my head with work, practice, homework and midterms, not to mention sorority pledging, though I'm rethinking the whole thing. But we'll see.

I wanna write, but right now nothing comes to mind. Think I have writer's block. Huh. Imagine that. Oh well... I'll try again later after talking to my mom. Layter peeps!

Wassalam..

Assalamu'alaikum....

Shitty, shitty, shitty....... I woke up late for class today, crap. I hate this. I don't get to rest during the day, and now even my nights aren't my own anymore. I don't fall asleep easy, unless I'm very tired, so it usually takes me around an hour and a half of tossing and turning before I finally fall asleep again. I would appreciate it if people would leave me and my nights alone. So unless it's a life and death situation, do not call me after 1 am. Last night I had 3 phone calls, one at 1 am, one at around 2 (cuz, I love you, but that was wack timing) , and the last one at 3 am, and that was the last straw. I work hard during the day, so please, just let me sleep.

Assalamu'alaikum and hi....

Sorry I haven't been updating my blog, I've been trying to get things on track right now after the Sunday's "The Ramayana" performance. The performance went well, extremely good, I think. And the best thing was, I didn't even feel nervous on stage. That is so weird. I mean, even when I was just singing half of a song during the Eid Umimsa celebration I was kinda shaking, and I was so scared of screwing up. But on Sunday, I felt... nothing. No nervousness. I mean, I was really excited, and I know a lot of people are there, but I didn't get cold feet, I didn't feel scared. In fact, it felt like the most natural thing ever. Huh. Imagine that. Maybe there was something good that came out of being too tired and numb to feel too many emotions at once.

Monday was blah. So was today, but even more worse. The good thing was that I started my new job, which means I've taken the first step to earning a non-dining hall related paycheck. Yay! There wasn't much to do today, basically "makan gaji bute aje". I came, got the full tour of Pierpont Commons, read a few files, sorted out a few magazines, then went home.

Right now I'm feeling really, really, REALLY tired, effects from Sunday's performance and me going insane trying to catch up on homework and stuff. Me tired, school stupid. Nuff said.

Oh, and I'll be updating my pictures soon, so wait for it, okay :) ? Bye!

Wassalam...

Assalamu'alaikum and hi again :) ,

Okay, I should be sleeping now because I have to get up at 6.30 am, but I'm just so PSYCHED!! It's performance day!!!! Woo-hoo!!!! Wish me luck, I'm so gonna need it!

Wassalam...